Delays Are My Ways Of Slowing You Down

March 16, 2026

Hey family I found myself wound up in full on frustration and complaint and irritation. On the mountain, my computer began to glitch really bad. When I would type the cursor would jump and it would act crazy all on its own for two days, it was like this so I was unable to communicate with anyone or do any work. The first trial started with me losing my phone on my trip, on the way to America so I had no way to communicate until I realized, wait, my computer had apps on there that I could use and I could use the wifi to make calls through my iMessage, praise God! When my computer started acting up I knew it was an assignment but the usually prayers I pray over my equipment and computer that works, were just not working until Brother Clarence came to the rescue and gave me a mouse to use instead because he said my pad may have become faulty. For a day it worked then it started acting up again. It wasn’t until I came home with my family in Texas that the computer started working bit more normal again.

Then with my phone gone, I realized I couldn’t log into my email. Gmail is so annoying, Lord forgive me and I feel like it has the highest security to me of recovery accounts than any other website or account. It’s so hard to get your mail back because it’s an automated system they put the 2 step verification and even after you verify the 2 steps it still flagged me and had me go through more rigorous security checks to no avail. They said they would get back to me in 2 days then it got changed to now 7 days. I have been locked out of my email for over two weeks unable to communicate. And upon getting my new phone I am unable to access any old contacts or iCloud because I can’t get into my email to activate it.

My personal email is connected to everything. Oh it’s been a real headache for me for sure. I finally decided maybe the Lord wants me to use a new email provider because Google is compromised and it’s great for YouTube channels but in case this happens again I don’t want all my accounts locked. I’m grateful that our channel email. It’s used by more than one member of the group so we have access to the channel and I was able to get into it today but my personal email is still locked up.

The baby girl arrived here with my family in a new environment was so fussy, agitated and even aggressive. I had never seen Rose act the way she was acting and it was so frustrating for me. I just kept praying over her thinking this is not the Rose I know.

Lastly as I was hoping to finally leave this week for Ghana I pulled the “beg for alms card” I just knew I would have an issue with our finances and the payments my beloved was hoping to come through to get my ticket would be delayed and I would be stuck and sure enough that is what happened. I’m still waiting and trusting the Lord for provision for a ticket back home when a brother in Italy reached out to me that the Lord is wanting me to visit them on my way back and help them with their second child coming. This is a Heartdweller and the mother is one of my spiritual daughters: truly dear to my heart, the one that Jesus said is a daughter after my own heart and she truly is. But to be honest to go there, I just wasn’t looking forward to the journey.

I missed my beloved and I longed to also go home and get a bit of respite get Rose back on her routine and I also missed being at the mission house in Mankessim. I thought of the travel again and how I’m struggling with just one child and now having to go and help a family with their children too and any needs; like the mountain. My flesh was just warring for sure. I just wanted to rest. Silly huh? Being a servant of the Lord saying that sounds so silly. Sure enough the next morning I pulled a card and it said “selfishness”. As I thought I know Lord, I know I’m being selfish, please help me. I am a hot mess guys.

I talked to my beloved and he had mixed feeling because he missed us and wanted to see us. So he made a compromise that I should come back to see him and then I can leave after. So we will see what happens. That also takes provision too and now I have to buy a ticket to Italy.

Blessed Mother broke in though all my frustrations, selfish thoughts and anxieties and reminded me of how she rushed to Elizabeth side even when she was pregnant to be of service to her. I had pulled the rhema the day before that said “I washed their feet now you go and do the same”. I thought okay, how can I better serve here at my mother’s house? But I realize now, it’s about the trip. I was still struggling with the idea so I asked for discernment and all my legs of discernment confirmed with a strong yes, that I was meant to go.

Something funny on the way out of a store I saw a book with the words “Ciao Bella” anyone who knows this brother in heartdwellers knows that that is his saying. He always says that, so here I thought I was taking days to pray about it and struggle with an obedient yes. When I looked up and seeing this book I knew it was a rhema word and I just laughed saying, ‘Okay Lord, make a way and I will go.’

I came before Jesus that morning, in all my frustrations, the delays and the struggle with my yes, saying, ‘Jesus what’s on your heart?’

Jesus began,

“Be patient, My beloved with each trial. Patience, remember? I said I need everything not only for your nation but for the salvation of your enemies. There will be more assignments of sabotage and delay headed your way but bear it all patiently. The demons want to get you wound up, twisted up full of complaint, resentment and bitterness with every circumstance which open the door for greater breech and more demons to enter until you’re bogged down full of rancor in your heart and then they heap upon you condemnation. Don’t allow it My beloved one. I just want you to sing praises through every circumstance and even laugh at the assignment they have set up when it comes knowing that you have already been forewarned and that Your God is using this for their demise and for your benefit to grow you in greater virtue of patience. Continue to have your response be… Jesus I trust in You, Jesus I trust in You, Jesus I trust in You.”

“In all of this don’t lose sight with your time with Me. Even the little you can give Me, I will take that, because I will be the source of your strength and give you the peace in your storm. Try your best to pray the binding prayer daily, I know your schedule and taking care of the little one has been very taxing lately, but it will get better. Be patient with her as well, be gentle, give her your time and love, that is where she will learn it from. Don’t allow the demons to bombard you with what you have to do, make you feel condemned for not completing it and frustrated when more delays and hindrances come knowing that I am in everything rooting you on. As I tell them to throw worst at her and she will still praise Me.”

And I sensed here Jesus was talking about what he permitted Job to go through when Satan was seeking someone to sift, it was God who suggested that He sift Job, crazy right? I just imagined God saying proud and confidently; offering His beloved child to the hand of His enemy because He knew He would deliver him and be victorious.

Job 1:6-12

6 One day the angels came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan also came with them. 7 The Lord said to Satan, “Where have you come from?”

Satan answered the Lord, “From roaming throughout the earth, going back and forth on it.”

8 Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.”

9 “Does Job fear God for nothing?” Satan replied. 10 “Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. 11 But now stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face.”

12 The Lord said to Satan, “Very well, then, everything he has is in your power, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.

Jesus chimed in,

“You already know a thing or two about waiting.”

Lord but the worst, I mean you could have said, throw some things at her, but don’t say the worst.

(Jesus was laughing)

“We will get through each one together beloved, just come to Me pour out your frustration before Me and take a deep breath before My Holy Eucharist. There is where you are safe. That is My will for you to go and be of service to your beloved daughter. Just as blessed Mother rushed to her cousins Elizabeth side even in her need and discomfort she washed the feet of another. The rhema was for her. Do not be concerned by the lack of provision it soon will come for you and your beloved. Go there promptly little one I would prefer that’’

But Lord what about Derrick he is not feeling too well and wanted to go FOR respite before I leave.

“Honor His request if that is His will, then leave beloved. Don’t worry about the trip beloved it will be fruitful and a blessing for you and for her.”

I said Lord, I’m worried too about Derrick and his health and the pain I feel it’s spiritual.

“Well, worry gets you nowhere. Pray beloved, it’s also part of his purification and sanctification process for lent. When I allow delays and frustrations it’s suffering for sure and it’s the enemy’s assignment to bring these about but I use it all to slow souls down. Just as I am doing with you. When you slow down you find solutions for things, you see cracks where you would’ve rushed past them before. It also allows you to appreciate the smaller details in life that you easily take for granted so I use it all for your good. This is not just for you but for all My beloved brides who will have to endure through these trials of delay and what seems like sabotage which I will use to bring about the greater good within you all.”

That was the end of Jesus message. 

So guys, to be forewarned is to be forearmed. Lord help us. Just remember if you meet delays, frustrations, inconveniences, seems like sabotage comes your way, the Lord is using it to slow us all down. So it looks like I’m heading now to Italy as well to help my dear daughter and this wonderful family in Heartdwellers mission house. I need a ticket to get there and the cost is about $800-900 to Rome so if anyone feels led to bless us with a donation towards that would be so grateful. The baby is due April 2-4th if I’m not mistaken so I need to get there pretty soon. So please think of me.

And I do want to share just an insert from a book that I get rhemas from called Spiritual Diary. The book is separated by 12 different virtues and twice in a week I got patience. This is some really good sayings and quotes from different saints about their experiences in patience. I just wanted to share with you guys I just thought it would be a blessing.

The first one is from St. Vincent De Paul. He says, We never have a greater reason to rejoice than when we are oppressed and burdened by sufferings and afflictions, because these render us similar to Christ our Lord, and this resemblance is a true a sign of our predestination. 

Another passage says, One day Jesus said to St Gertrude, “The more you are tried, and your way of life is disapproved of, through no fault of your own, the dearer you will be to Me, because you are being more like Me. I suffered continuous trials and was opposed in all My undertakings.”

That is something to think about. I think sometimes you don’t know Jesus’ life and we don’t know the details of it, besides what’s in the bible after He started His ministry but to say that He suffered continuous trials and it was opposed, He had so much opposition in every undertaking that should be comforting for us who have to go through that.

Another passage it says, When St. Mathilda was suffering during a serious illness, Our Lord appeared to her and told her that when He sees a soul gravely afflicted, He embraces her with his left arm in order to draw her heart closer to His.

That’s so sweet. Another one says,

St. Loius Gonzanga There is no sure way to know that one is a saint than to see Him lead a holy life and yet suffer desolation, trials and tribulations.

Well welcome to the club, all heartdwellers, I know you guys, all are going through it. Another one says,

St. Ignatious Loyola, being perfect and dear to God seemed to draw down persecutions upon himself to such a point that when He was away, his companions enjoyed great peace, but when he would return, the community would undergo some trial.

But find comfort in that, anyone who is listening. If you’re told like, man, every time you’re around there’s always a trial or something is always going on, that means you are a called to be a saint and you’re dear to God. Another passage says,

Joseph suffered many great persecutions from His brothers, and this is the way by which God led him to his great honors.

And it’s true it lead him to rush the temple to marry Mary, to marry Blessed Mother and become the step father of Jesus. Wow. Another says,

Created for great things St Theresa suffered many incredible trials from all types of people even those who were very good and very spiritual. Many considered her deceived by the devil others ridiculed her revelations. Some wanted to exorcise her as one possessed. Some even reported her to the Holy Office.

Moreover during the foundation of new convents, she suffered many trials and much opposition from authorities.

Great, that definitely is my lot. Help us Lord to be patient in our sufferings. Alright God bless you family, please pray for me as I pray for you guys, may we all endure patiently, the trials and delays that are up ahead for all of us. Until the next message.