I Use You Not Because Of What You Have Done But Because Of My Mercy

Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family.

I am so sorry for the long days of no messages on the channel. I have been in transition and had a few ministry prayer meetings we were holding and that got me pretty busy. I am a bit settled now and can finally be still to hear from the Lord not just for your sake, but for mine. I have been a hot mess again guys.

The Lord warned me of suffering and trial coming and every time He desire I respond with grace and patience but rather I find myself responding with anger, bitterness, resentment even towards the Lord. I haven quite got the “rejoice in suffering” bit in scripture down yet I am struggling and always struggling with that especially if it’s a suffering that touches my heart.

Secondly, I failed in simplicity and imitating holy poverty as I am called to do. My avarice got the best of me and went a little bit overboard in getting gifts for people. I finally got the courage to get a rhema message with one eye opened as I clicked on the buttons and the message said, Why I Fell, I thought ouch. It touched on everything as Jesus was lovingly and gently correcting Mother Clare on these things and that I will repost as the follow up message because I believe it will benefit us all as the holiday is coming up.

I also got really sick and had to go to the clinic to be put on IV, after I got Death in the Bible promises which always lets me know there is a death curse so I asked the intercessors to please pray for me. I am feeling better today after my treatment but oh man it had been a rough couple of days.

So I came before the Lord this morning just utterly broken by the trial I had just gone through. My heart was bleeding and I was feeling hopeless again. Lord I come to you broken in need of healing physically and emotionally. I knew you said hat each mission trip would render its own suffering ut I’m so weary Lord I know I have messed up in various ways please speak to my heart Jesus was on your heart.

And I am sorry that I have been too busy with the world and haven’t made time to hear your voice please forgive me Lord…I waiting and all I heard was silence

Oh Lord.. if not for my sake, for the sake of the flock, please speak to me?

Jesus began,

“I have given you instructions already beloved, teach on what you know to do. There were many questions that presented themselves during each meeting that can be addressed and will be a blessing to those who hear it because their questions and fears are common questions and fears in My body.”

Here Jesus is talking about the prayer meetings we have been holding. There were many errors that had been taught among those who attending the prayer meeting and the same things kept popping up in each meeting and I felt the Lord wanted me to do a teaching about them, so will do that.

Jesus continued,

“Unfortunately there have been many pastors who have intend to do good, but out of ignorance have pegged the gifts of the Holy Spirit like speaking in tongues as coming fro the evil one and that is a fallacy, that is error at its purest form so teach beloved please teach. Use this time you have here to build memories with your beloved, but to also get busy concerning things with ministry and no longer neglect your prayer time or adoration time. Time spend with Me is time that you get restored back in one hundred fold because of the graces, the clarification and inspirations you receive that lead you in the right direction, so you can never go wrong beloved. I know this has been a hard few days for you, very hard and you are still struggling to trust Me in the process and that is ok.

“Take it one day at a time beloved and just as the council you were given remember you are living out an answered pray. The enemy most definitely wants to steal your joy and your focus so that this time will be wasted rather on things that don’t matter, when this is a time to get much done and actually build a deeper bond of trust and commitment with your beloved.

“I am in everything and use everything don’t think for once you stopping over here was a mistake it was very intentional and have many great consolations in store for you beloved. I need you to forgive, be gracious, show mercy and be very patience. You will have what I said you would have, concerting this marriage. It will continue to take much love, sacrifice and effort on your part to bring it there. Its your love that will continue to transform and your patience don’t rush things or no longer see his weakness as being completed gone. That’s what you desire but are your weakness completely gone?

No Lord, they are not.

“And I still use you and work through you. I still love you and I am patience with you. So I want you to do the same for him. You both are conquering the mountain of self, to conquer yourself, and that will not happen overnight or in a short period of time when you have taken years from childhood growing up to have certain mindsets and experiences that have caused certain weakness, all of that will take time to break free from and rectify. And all I am asking you is to love beloved, continue to love and trust Me…even when you are struggling to trust Me simply say Jesus I trust you Jesus I trust you Jesus I trust you and I will receive that as an act of good will and will help you as I am ready to do right now

Thank you Lord for your mercy towards me. My heart still hurts a bit, can you please heal it?

“Yes beloved; renounce seeds of bitterness, anger unforgivness and resentment and allow Me to bring healing to it.”

Ok Lord, I renounce seeds of bitterness, anger, resentment and unforgiveness in Jesus name. Lord, please purify and clean my heart

“It is clean beloved , you would do well to go to confession too.”

Yes Lord will do that

Forgive me for also failing in my excess with the items we purchased I thought you wanted us to use the money for souls and I think I went overboard

“Yes you did and scandalized a weak soul but in My mercy I will rectify it.”

An as an aside guys, that is another message I will teach on “Taking nothing for the journey”. When we went the prayer meeting, we left with 4 suitcases full of stuff, not even for myself I had bought things for others so I thought Jesus would be okay with that right….wrong and the person who hosted I could tell was very put off because she was very simple and on the messages, Jesus had asked us to be very simple in living. Then in my Lord Supper readings, I got the gospel about the Pharisees who don’t practice what they preach and I thought: oh boy Lord I know its about us… please forgive us

So I am confessing my sins of avarice here before you guys

“It’s very important that you become an example of practicing what you preach. Simplicity, simplicity simplicity the tis the way to go even when it comes to others. You give them excess it teaches them to desire excess.”

Oh I see so even when I purchased gift for others if I am excessive in the things I buy for them it rather plants the seeds in their hearts to desire excess things.

“Yes beloved”.

Oh wow.. never saw it that way, I just thought I was giving lavishly to the poor.

“To give lavishly to the poor is to come to their aid and meet their need lavishly that is what I want the funds used for. There are things that are very necessary to build them up in education and to make a way to provide for them to make income. That I want you to be lavish in your giving, to help change their state of their lives but when it comes to gifts, think simply.”

Ok Lord, sorry about that and please help my beloved see that too, to have the desire to live more simply

“In time beloved you just pray and allow him to lead and don’t chide him for items he feels he needs, no don’t do that. Remember if there is any misdirection its your job to pray and leave the rest to me.”

Ok Lord, sorry for that too.

Is there any word you have for the flock?

“There is much to say but what I want from you now is to teach correcting the errors That came up in the prayer meetings. I will help you and speak to the flock through these teachings. This message is also a blessing because it shows you’re frailty and you’re weakness and how I still use you not because of what you have done because of My mercy. My beloved Brides, I can use anyone come to Me with your weakness, your failures and even your sins; don’t let that stop you from doing ministry or keep you apart from Me. Trust in My Merciful love for you and trust in My merciful Heart.”

And that was and of Jesus’ message.

God bless you family. Continue to lift us up in prayer. And these prayer meetings as well. Until the next message..