You’re In The Trenches

January 27, 2026

The chorus of this song. Can we talk [singing] just for a minute? Girl, I want to know your name… Kept ringing through my head. It's a love song from Tevin Campbell. It's called Can We Talk. I smile because I knew Jesus wanted to speak to me. I'd arrived in the Ivory Coast for a few days with my family, and it was rough.

We were having so many misunderstandings. I was becoming really weary of the breakthrough the Lord promised. Fears were looming over me, and I felt surrounded on every side. I wasn't able to hear from the Lord for days now because of it, and also because of the baby girl. She was in unorderly, fussy, and restless state, not sleeping as long as she usually does, which usually leaves me time to hear from the Lord. I was irritable and frustrated. When the song brought it to my mind. In the morning, I knew Jesus wanted to speak to me. It was Him singing over me, wanting to speak to me. So I came before him. Lord, I feel like my head is just a little bit above water. I'm about to go under any moment. I had gone to confession, but it was full of complaints rather than contrition, if I can be honest. And my confessor called it out. So I was musing over her counsel. And I said, "Jesus, Lord, there's some truth to what my confessor said. And the rhema you gave me this morning concerning the church of Thyatira, who influenced by Jezebel. Is that the state of my soul? Lord, I'm in a mess. Help me to understand, cuz my confessor said the same thing. The state of my soul is not in a good place.

Jesus began.

“My beloved, breathe. Let me speak to you. But you must believe My words to you. That is what is under attack.”

And as aside family, I'd received these rhema the day before we left. The first was a picture of a house on a rock with wind, rain, and fire all coming against it. On the back, it said, "Blessed are the blessed are you who build your house on the rock. Stand on my promises!”

The second said, Isaiah 42:9, "Behold, the former things have come to pass, and new things I declare before they spring up. I tell you of them."

And the third card said, "Offer yourself. Just because you can't see any fruit doesn't mean nothing is happening." I was definitely in a storm, and it felt easier to expect the worst.

Jesus knowing my thoughts, said, "And that is a lie. Beloved, they magnify your suffering and trials to make it seem that it will always be the case. Saint throws a blanket of generalization, making everything general and the new norm, which makes you blind from all the miracles of the happy times and celebrations you've experienced in your family.”

And here Jesus is referencing to how you can get thoughts in your mind concerning a situation about yourself or even someone, and you say to yourself this is always or speaking to someone, saying you always, you never or to your situation that'll never change or you speak over yourself I'm always sick, I'm always, I'll never get this done etc. Wow. And it just hit me. I didn't actually think it was from Satan. And I never thought of it as a blanket of generalization. That's an actual assignment. We can pray against, a blanket of generalization that he's thrown over us to cause us to speak over our situations and rather miss many times, even if it's few compared to the other times, but easy to forget the many other moments when things were good, or situations change, or small miracles that happen or small victory. It steals from us gratitude and recognizing the Lord is at work and that he's faithful. And that is so true, right? In your situation, that seems like a cycle. Dang, Satan's a liar. I'm a hot mess for believing it.

I said, "Lord, I'm sorry. It's really hard. Some things have been consistently one way for so long. And the pain of my heart being sick because hope is lost or deferred is too much for me to bear. Now I'm just hanging on just the thread of belief and hope."

“Then hang on, beloved. If that's all you have, hang on. This will not be as it always has been. I can promise you that. beloved, you are in the trenches. Yes, but whether you realize it or not, I'm building a new foundation. To be in a trench means that something was dug out. And that is what I've been doing with each and every single trial for this long. I've been digging out the sickness, the mess in both of your foundations, to build a new one. And right now, it feels really deep and dark. No light in sight because you're looking at the depth in which I've dug for you two out of My love. You're standing in something that is empty, that has been dug out, that is deep, very deep, that I'm about to fill. You see, from your vantage point, it's hopeless. But from Mine, the work I'm doing is almost complete. And I'm rather proud of Myself, (he said, smiling.) Just as I said on the day of creation on the sixth day, it is good. I say the same for this trench you're in. This is good!”

In Genesis 1:31, God saw all that He had made, and it was very good.

“What I'm going to fill it with is My goodness, My faithfulness, My promises and blessings to you, to you both. And soon you'll be standing on a firm ground which is solid, packed, filled up without cracks on level ground, which is a symbolism for Me. I am your sure foundation which cannot be shaken. But all that you both had in your foundation was full of yourself. Selfish desires, motives, fears, hidden expectations, and even fantasies, frustrations, bad habits, resentment, and bitterness. You name it. It was all icky stuff. Wounds from your past, and issues of dysfunction from your broken homes. But I'm turning things around. And I need your cooperation. Whether you realize it, believe it or not, he is cooperating. It is you that is not, because you don't believe. So you're taking this fight unto yourself. No longer do that, beloved. Lay it down. It won't be easy, but lay it down. Again, lay down your expectations and pray into them instead.”

And Lord, if I could be honest, I thought that was presumptuous of me to do. You know, I get way too attached to your promises, visions, and dreams you give me. Then, when things don't go as planned, it rather discourages me to devastation. Cuz sometimes that's why I was thinking, well, maybe just expect the worst.

“Don't do that beloved, that is not My nature.”

But the suffering Lord, the suffering of contradiction is a lot that you have for me and it always seems that way [I did it again, okay] it's not always, but more often than not met with contradiction, sorry Lord. Geez, I generalized it again it's just so painful.

“Well beloved, then surrender accepting My will even in the trial, as it comes. But expect good things from Me. Expect good things from this union because justice is not about you two but beyond, a much bigger picture. My glory has to be shown. It has to be a testimony of My goodness. And it will-- just in My timing. You were too attached to the type of breakthrough you wanted. That is why you're in this state. You didn't give me the free rein to give you the breakthrough that I desired for you. So much is happening. So much has been broken, beloved. The fruit has not come yet, and that is why you're struggling. But things are different. And aspects of him that were locked up, hindered, are now free. Free to really think outside himself. Free to cooperate with Me, to make the change. But it will take time. What was caged and imprisoned for so many years is not free, beloved. It's like a fresh new baby that you are demanding to walk. It first needs to be accustomed to this new environment, receive nourishment, grow in its understanding and mobility, and reach milestones in turning over, then crawling, then walking. Do you understand?”

Yes, Lord. I never saw it that way. Please help me when it feels so dark. I have so many fears, and some come to pass.

“Give me your fears, beloved, and proclaim your trust in Me. Pray, beloved. That is where your power, influence, and change lie. Pray and love. Things are not at all like they once was before. And as a child who was also taught by lessons through experience and breaking…”

As Jesus was speaking, Justin Rose woke up and decided to crawl to the edge of the bed, smiling. My initial knee-jerk reaction was to grab her in fear she may fall from the edge cuz she's fallen off the bed a few times, unfortunately. And now, when she gets the edge, she rather lies down, stretching herself to the edge, just watching me and smiling. It's funny because a friend told me after her first fall that she would need to fall at least three times until she learned not to go over the edge. And she's fallen that many times. And sure enough, she doesn't go over the edge anymore. I could sense Jesus making a lesson out of this as I was writing.

Jesus continued,

"Like falling off the bed a few times. They'll no longer just go off, but rather come to the edge, recognizing there's nowhere else to go, and are still… or cautious to come any closer, or the pain of the fall will come. So it's the same for your beloved. Allow him to fall a few times in the breaking. This time, there'll be a different response. I'll use it to form him more and more in his boundaries and new found freedom in Me, and no longer freedom and rebellion in the enemy's camp. Use this time wisely rather than complaining, praying, declaring, decreeing over him, over your family, and over the plans I have for him here. Decrees are powerful and set motion into place, especially when you decree what heaven has already pronounced. It will be done. Enjoy this time with your little one as well.”

Thank you, Lord. And what about the rhema concerning the church at Thyatira? Wow, Lord. I came under the influence of Jezebel?

And the rhema guys, It says in Revelation to the angel of Thyatira, write these are the words of the son of God, whose eyes are like blazing fire, whose feet are like burnished bronze. I know your deeds, your love and faith, your service and perseverance, and that you're now doing more than you did at first. Nevertheless, I have this against you. You tolerate the woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophet. By her teaching, she misleads My servants into sexual immorality and the eating of food sacrificed to idols. I've given her time to repent of her immorality, but she's unwilling. So, I'll cast her on a bed of suffering. I'll make those who commit adultery with her suffer intensely until they repent of her ways. I'll strike her children dead. Then all the churches will know that I am He who searches their hearts and minds. I will repay each of you according to your deeds. Now I say to the rest of you, in Thyatira to you who do not hold to their teachings and have not learned Satan's so-called deep secrets. I will not impose any burden on you except to hold on to what you have until I come. To the one who is victorious and does My will to the end. I will give authority over the nations. That one will rule them with an iron scepter and will dash them into pieces like pottery. Just as I have received authority from My father, I will also give that one the morning star. Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.

When I got this family, I went to the Lord, wondering, could it be speaking about me? Many times, it may be speaking about the group or the bigger Heartdwellers group, basically like, there's an infection somewhere in the flock. I definitely didn't think it was about me. I thought Lord all the prayers I had done, how, in what way? I got the Holy Spirit. It was about me. Then the Holy Spirit dropped in my heart the recent motives I had of wanting to get my nails done and my hair done. I've gotten these done in the past, and even this time, I went to the Lord about it, and I got joy. So I was confused while I was being reprimanded for this.

But He made me understand that my motives were rather out of insecurity and comparison. And it's true. If I can be honest, I've struggled many times being married to a soul that is still very much in the world after taking my vows and then jumping into marriage. It's hard to keep a balance without going overboard because you're surrounded by this, constantly in the world. Although my beloved actually doesn't like me wearing makeup and wearing my natural hair, there's always a nudge to step it up a bit, to do more, be more, to keep up. And I see now the Lord is bringing this to my attention because of my impure motives that led to sin and vanity, and succumb to the worldly standards. And as I thought of the video that I shared a few months ago, the Lord shared about makeup and wigs, etc. Cuz somebody did a video that all of that is bad, and I thought, well then, the Lord can that be true?

Jesus gave me a message about it a few months ago, and he was very balanced, and he didn't generalize it like he said Satan does and many doctrines do. So I wanted to understand.

Jesus, knowing my thoughts said, “It would be good to revisit the message I gave you about it. It's all about the motives.” 

So I looked up the message. It's called There's A Pharisee In Everyone and this is what Jesus said about it. I'll have the link in the comments. 

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment such as the elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to adorn themselves.

Deuteronomy 22:5.

“In these scriptures, do I refer to those who practice such things going to hell?”

This is Jesus speaking.

“No, My beloved brides, the first scripture above is a reference to how a woman should carry herself. What is most important is her inner beauty, one of a gentle and quiet spirit. A virtuous woman and wife is what I'm calling all women to. Not to focus so much on your outward appearance alone, for that profits nothing before Me. That profits nothing before Me, and not even your marriage. However, adorning yourself with these items will not lead you to hell. That is condemnation. Making your looks an idol is vanity, and that can lead you into ungodliness. Ungodliness leads you into unrighteousness and outside of a relationship with Me and all manner of vices and sin which can lead you to hell. But you're not condemned, My brides, for doing these things. What I've always asked and encouraged My beautiful brides is purity. Purity in your looks, in your motives, in your intentions, and in your actions. That is what matters most.”

Jesus continued, now, in our message, “I have encouraged you in taking care of your natural hair, beloved, don't allow your trials to influence you back into the world to compete and compare with these worldly attachments."

And as an aside, guys, for the ladies with natural black hair, the Lord is saying for me not to do any more wigs. I had two that I'll wear as a protective style because leaving black natural hair out can cause it to break. But He did okay with braids, but no more wigs. I have actually natural hair. It's a lot of work and maintenance. I wanted to cut it all off years ago, but Jesus said no. He wanted me to keep my hair because I'm not a kosher nun. He said they love the variety of their creation. Wow, God is amazing. Our natural hair ladies glorifies God. Amazing, right? I'll have the full message in the comments. It's called Good Morning Holy Spirit. This message He gave me about 4 years ago. I think I should maybe post it. It's such a good message. Thank you, Lord, for the conviction. It's hard, Jesus. I ask that You would help me not to compare with the world and vanity, but to be content with who you've made me to be. And trust you'll make My beloved to be content with who you've made me to be also.

“Write My promises down, beloved. Even those that have come to pass that will help you. Then pray and decree what is your expectation.”

And that was the end of Jesus' message.

This was a personal message to me, but I believe many listening on the channel can relate and glean something from this message. I know many of us are going through a storm again, when we all had hopes of a major breakthrough, but maybe the breakthrough is happening, but we can't perceive it. A miracle has taken place, whether the Lord is finally breaking you to bring you to the end of yourself to finally do His will, or your mindset or that of your loved one you've been praying for is changing, or you're not completely healed yet, but there's strength and grace you've had that you've never had before.

Ask the Lord to show you the breakthrough in what He's doing versus what you wanted to see Him do. And also for those married to a spouse who's more in the world than you are, hopefully you can relate and release them. Jesus made it clear to me as well. When we yield ourselves to any form of worldly standard, whether it's out of insecurity or thoughts of pleasing our spouse, we feed their flesh and not their spirit. So to stick with the convictions the Lord has given us and do nothing that leads us into sin or compromising your conscience for the sake of your spouse, and pray, and in time they will come up higher. Strongholds are breaking guys, because of your prayers. They're truly broken.

Let's believe. Be patient. Trust the Lord to see the fruit in the right time. I'm speaking this over myself as well. God bless you family. Please pray for me as I pray for you all.

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