Conversations With Jesus

February 5, 2026

Man, I'm sorry, Lord. I really struggle with this approach because when I wake up, my mind is swimming with all sorts of thoughts and having my twisting time and the Lord's Supper helps me to navigate having an idea what's on your heart. Sorry, I'm not used to coming blindly to sit with you and hear you speak. Please help me with this.

So aside family I'm so used to for all these years waking up spending time with the Lord in worship, our trysting time and then doing the Lord's supper and doing all my prayers before I listen for His voice. Now in this new season as a mother, He's wanted me to come right away to speak to Him. And I'm really struggling with that because it's in the interesting time that He gives me songs and I have an idea of what He's trying to tell me or in the Lord's supper, the readings He gives me, gives me a direction and I always feel like it's not sufficient enough, now that I just come and sit with Him. It's crazy how bogged down we are to routine. But I struggle and Satan takes advantage as all sorts of excuses come to my mind, to not sit down and write but do other things and then maybe later in the evening when I get a chance to do all of that then I'll sit down and hear His voice but I never do. I never get to it. So today I went to discern something else in the morning and I got obedience and immediately I thought is it about coming to hear His voice first Lord? Coming to hear his voice first get a message from him and I got joy as I thought, oh man Lord I'm messing up.

Jesus began, 

“Well think about it, what you just watched, the question sounded silly didn't it?”

And guys he's talking about this real I watch I had I had just accidentally clicked my hand on a real as I was looking for something online and the guy was doing a podcast interview and asked the interviewer if he had 5 minutes to talk to Jesus what would he say and the guy's response was so priceless he looked at the young man very confused and said you have all the time to talk to Jesus as he took his cup and sipped his coffee very nonchalant and a matter of fact. I laughed thinking what kind of question was that anyway.

Jesus continued, "If you have 5 minutes to sit down with me, what would you say?" As he thought, "You can do that even now." And the man responded that you can do that all the time. The young man asking the question, "Doesn't know Me intimately yet, but he will soon, but you know Me intimately. Beloved, just see it this way that I watch over your sleep in anticipation for you to rise so that I can commune with you, fellowship and talk to you. I, although God, wait on you and for you to come and sit and be with me. There's absolutely nothing we cannot discuss. Tell me about the thoughts swimming through your head, your worries, your responsibilities that need to be covered, just as you would a friend. It's the enemy of your soul that blankets this time with static right when you wake up and rather feel like a chore coming before me than seeing it as an opportunity to have a conversation with your most dearest friend. There's also a lot on my mind that runs through your night. You can ask me about that too,” [He said smiling]

Sure, Lord, you want my conversation?

“Yes, I want your conversation and that of all My brides.”

But Lord, if I can be honest, sometimes I wish I was like those heavy prophets who get a word from God for the nations or the people of God concerning what's going on. I tend to think my communication with you and to the flock is so personal. Like, will they benefit? Or maybe they're looking for a deep prophetic word. So, please forgive me.

“Well, my conversations with you are deep because personal conversations means we have to go deep. And do not compare yourself. That is why I gave you the rhema the other day. There's one spirit and many gifts. Each should walk in obedience according to the path the Lord has willed for them. Comparison is a killer. Those souls I use in that way is most necessary. But you too play a big part in My body. Sometimes rather more importantly, although you do not see the fruit now what I desire above everything else is intimacy. I want intimacy with my brides. Anyone can be given a word for Me. But how many can have conversations with me? I want my people to know how human I am. Although God very human because I became flesh to dwell among My beloved ones. John 1. And to walk, talk, guide and love them. That is how you make not ministers for ministry.”

That's good. Lord,

“Stop looking to others and desiring their ministry. That is why I had you misplace a remote today.”

And I laughed. I said, "Lord, I thought it was the cloaking demons."

And He said, "No, beloved, it was Me. You'll find it soon. But your heart was getting into comparison again and wishing you had their platform and wishing that you were called to lead worship ministry rather than the ministry I've given you, which is a far bigger reach. Again, you just don't see the fruit. Your worship now was beginning to turn into worshiping the gift and the idea of I shoulda, coulda would as you would say, or questioning the way that I've led you into this path.”

Dang, guys. Jesus always exposes the truth. [laughter] He's so right. He's talking about um me listening and to worship, new worship uh songs that were coming out on the TV. Me and my beloved have traveled again and every morning has been wonderful as he's put it on worship and we've been praising the Lord through these worship songs all throughout the day since we've been here. However, I started finding myself missing singing and being in a choir. I started daydreaming about being a worship leader and wondering why the Lord didn't call me to do that instead. Which leads me to comparing my voice and wondering if I could really do it in the first place and how I would love to do that. In comparison to this hard journey I'm on now. I used to be a part of Gateway Worship Choir and I had the most wonderful growing experiences there. I get to lead worship with some of the major worship artist and my heart was starting to desire that road again instead. And so that's why Jesus had me lose the remote.

So this morning I woke up looking for the remote to turn on the worship again and I could not find it. I looked everywhere. So the first half of the day weren't able to do worship but just me and Rose. And so I decided, okay, let me just pray. Let me do other things. And then that's when I sat with the Lord to get the message and I realized, okay, it was Jesus that I would lose it. So I started binding, rebuking. I was like, the enemy doesn't want me to worship. And I realized that my heart was getting into the wrong space or should I say my head was getting into the wrong space. Ah so the Lord's so faithful to always expose the motives of our hearts. Thank you Jesus. And help me to be content with what you've called me to be and who I am.

Jesus continued, "My beloved, your path is uniquely tailored for you. I alone know what you were created for and the full capacity in which you are to reach. When you look at others, you're actually looking at the lesser things because you only see from the surface. I see from the depths. If a soul should follow my leading and instructions, each would have such a greater glory than they could ever imagine. And not in comparison to another, but the glory which I designated each soul to have. So it's very fruitless when you compare, especially ministry. The greatest threat to Satan's kingdom is not a soul who's endowed with gifts. For many have great gifts, some tapped into and some untapped. The greatest threat to His kingdom is intimacy with me. Not only that, but a soul who lives it, conveys it, and teaches it. Many have intimate unions with Me, but they use their gifts to minister to the body. But very few take their time to teach and equip My body to also walk in intimacy and hear my voice.”

“That is not glamorous. It doesn't come with signs, wonders, and miracles, and many times no stage. It's just a little one being faithful to pass on the knowledge they have been given. So keep your eyes on Me, beloved, and be faithful and obedient to Me alone. They're so thirsting, so hungry to hear from Me as you do. There are many who have a wrong perception of who I am, My character, and My nature. They don't know how easygoing, funny, [he said smiling,] merciful and relatable I can be if they come to Me with all sincerity and honesty just to talk with me. That's why the book of conversations with me is so important. I brought you a soul who can help you put that together.”

And then he interrupted and said, "Take care of her, beloved. Let's take care of her. I'm going nowhere." Jesus said this smiling and he was referencing to baby girl waking up. She came to the edge of the bed looking at me smiling waiting for me to pick her up. She still looks sleepy and I wanted to finish typing out the message. But Jesus is so kind and compassionate even to her needs as well. So I was able to put her back to sleep after some time and came back to sit with Jesus to finish our conversation.

Okay Jesus, I'm back.

“Yes, beloved. And with the donations that came in, use some of that to prepare the book for printing. Now, you have provision. So, work on that. Oh, bless many. All of them.”

Oh, wow. Thank you, Lord. I totally forgot about them. He's talking about the books, that we have typed out. We haven't printed yet. We didn't have the funds for it, but now we do.

“Well, that is why having some one-on-one time with Me is good. I bring things to your remembrance you have forgotten. teach about intimacy, beloved. Just practice tips and share your messages. There many new souls are brought to the channel and many more that I'll bring in the near future. Your platform is growing not only in the mission house but here also because I desire to reach more souls that they may know Me and they may enter into My heart and make it their home where I can dwell with them one on-one speaking to many issues of their heart. Just as you thought this morning, there's so many voices and so many outlets to receive information. It's overwhelming. Souls are running to social media platforms and following certain people to hear from Me or to get answers to their questions.

“And many are still leaving empty and voided the personal questions they need answered from Me. There's nothing wrong with following those I raised up to understand my ways, My beloved brides. But I desire, My beloved ones, to speak to you directly. And it's not as difficult as you think. It's the noise around you. It's too loud. And you have never communicated with me. So it's hard to recognize when I speak to you. Because believe it or not, I'm always speaking in different ways. And don't come to Me with what you want to hear, but genuinely come to Me to hear from My heart the instructions I will give to you. Speak to Me about anything and everything, and I'll be here for you, My beloved brides. Many have a need now for that more than ever. With anxiety, panic attacks, and depression on the rise upon the world and even oppressing My people, I am the prince of peace, the source of it. Come to Me. Speak to Me. Find your stillness in the chaotic world. Find your God friend who's willing to help you navigate through it and to do life with you.”

And that was the end of Jesus' message.

Amen. And that's such a beautiful conversation with the Lord. I hope you guys were stirred up in your hearts to really sit with Him and hear Him speak to you. I'll try my best to put a teaching together with um tips. I've already done several teachings on intimacy, but I have an idea the Lord wants Me to do something different this time. And only that, I'm going to get some of our intercessors to share with you their tips on how they begin to hear from the Lord after I gave them instructions. Many of them are getting messages and some are just starting out. And it's exciting whenever I give a tip and somebody follows it and they come back and say, "Hey, I heard from the Lord." And I'm like, "Wow, just so amazing cuz that's the desire of my heart, guys. That truly is the cry of my heart, the cry of my life is that I just want people to love Jesus and I want to make Him known. And I want them to know how personable and intimate and loving and funny He is. To truly be their friend.

So if you're new to this channel, welcome, welcome, welcome. I pray that this me these messages and the leading of the Holy Spirit leads you to walk in a deeper union with the Lord and a deeper relationship with Jesus and having your own conversations with Him because there's nothing special about me. There's no particular unique grace that God has given me.

The Bible says that My sheep hear my voice, no the stranger will they follow, and just simply what you're seeing is discipline and obedience. So if you're willing to be disciplined by the hand of the Lord in a loving way, graceful way, sometimes painful, well actually all the time it's kind of painful but still very graceful. [laughter] But He again, He chastise those He loves and willing to be obey Him. Then guys, you will hear his voice. You'll hear His voice when you put aside everything else that you want and want Him alone.

It will be so much clearer and you discipline yourself regularly to conversate with Him because it is just like a friend. If you pick up your phone and you go to your favorite YouTube channel, your favorite Instagram or Twitter page or you call your best friend or if it's your boyfriend or if it's your husband. Think about doing that with Jesus that He's the first person that you talk to or you at least talk to Him every single day. You can begin to cultivate a discerning when He's speaking to you and how He speaks to you because that's a unique thing about it. Jesus speaks to us. He doesn't go against His word, but each of us are unique.

He has a unique way that he speaks to us. And if you don't know your relationship or cultivate that relationship with the Lord, then it's hard for you to discern when He's trying to tell you something, when you don't necessarily hear a very clear voice. So that's what I'm going to try to help you navigate. All right, God bless. You found me into the next.

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