Lord, I'm Tired! Jesus, "You can Stop Here Or Go On?"

May 5, 2026

I don't know about you guys, but so many of us are weary. It's been a long hard fight since giving our lives to Jesus and becoming a heart dweller for sure because you are His suffering bride. You go from one battle to the next. And I've said so many times these past two weeks in my heart, "Lord, I'm so tired." Then I reached out to an intercessor who is undergoing another trial with kittens dying one by one, and I told her to do the 14-day protocol prayer. And she said, " I've done so many prayers. Some for 20 days, 80 days, some for 100 days, some for 100 days. Mother, I'm tired…” With an exclamation point. I thought to myself, hmm, dang, Lord, I'm feeling the same way. I spoke to another intercessor who's going to own trial and she said the same thing. I felt for days such low energy, extreme exhaustion, lethargy, physically unable to move forward to do anything.

And after taking care of the baby, I knew that it was a curse. But I asked the Lord why? Why is he allowing this and then giving me laziness in the Bible promises? It's so hard to get things done when I'm feeling like this. And mentally and emotionally, I've just been on the verge of want to give up again. Then two days ago, the feeling of exhaustion came back. And I thought, okay, this is an attack again, Lord. I got the rhema. It was a suffering. Then the second said, no matter how you feel right at this moment, I don't disappoint goodwill. Usually when these feelings overcome me, I just give into it. It's so hard to fight because it doesn't let up. But this time, I said, "No, I can't be bogged down again with this exhaustion, this tiredness, not being able to do anything." I rose up and quoted the scripture Philippians 4:13. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I had so much to do and I couldn't cave in again because I will continue to feel overwhelmed because nothing was getting done and it worked. I literally repeated over and over again with each step asking the Lord for clarity as to what to do next and that I could do all things through Christ who strengthens me and what it is that I need to accomplish today. The battle in my family increased as well and finding out about what I shared with you guys and loving our enemies. I was just so worried of these battles and knowing I had much more ahead. My joy is gone now and I was even resentful of the crosses rather if I could be honest. I had nothing in me to encourage even the intercessor besides just do it girl and see what the Lord would do through this prayer. I knew others in the group must be feeling the same way too. Many others whose battles are just ongoing. I was thinking, Lord, when will we get a respite. I know Jesus needs everything from us, but I feel if I kept going, I would have nothing left to give. I started even second-guessing staying behind. And that has never happened, guys. I've gotten to a place where I felt so exhausted mentally, emotionally, and physically now and thinking how is it possible that I would be able to handle when Satan is given free reign over the world and we really have to fight then I started thinking Lord I think I want to be raptured home. Jesus forgive me.

Then as I was putting up the previous message together, I had to read passages of the final quest as I shared with you guys. And I came across this passage and I was so convicted and it said, "God has a different definition of peace and safety than we do. To be wounded in the fight is the greatest honor. That is why the Apostle Paul boasted of his beatings and stoning’s. There's no courage unless there's real danger. The Lord said he would go with Joshua to fight for the promised land. But over and over again, he exhorted him to be strong and courageous because he was going to have to fight and there would be dangers. It is in this way the Lord proves those who are worthy of the promises. They love God and His provision more than their own security. Courage is a demonstration of true faith. The Lord never promised that His way would be easy, but it would be worth it. The courage of those who fought from the level of salvation moved the angels of heaven to esteem what God has wrought in the fallen race of men. They took their wounds in the terrible onslaught, but they did not quit and they did not retreat. Even so, by climbing the mountain, you were able to fight with an authority that ultimately freed even more souls. Many more souls will fill these rooms to the great joy of heaven if you go on.” And that was the angel talking to Rick Joiner.

I sighed heavily thinking to myself, "Lord, I'm sorry. I've lost my perspective of what really matters, eternity and souls, and that is what we're fighting for."

Jesus, do you have anything to add?

Jesus responded,

"You can stop here, Beloved, or you can go on. You and all the weary ones."

Really, Jesus? Would You allow us to give up and stop?

“You have the free will, Beloved. I'm not a harsh taskmaster. As I've stated before, I will still love you the same. I may not be with you in the same manner, but I will always be around, never forsaking you and guiding you through this walk of life. The question is, will you be happy? Will you find the peace and temporal joy you're so seeking after? You and all My weary your brides. You will not rather there be moments of what looks like rest but rather idleness that will have you waste time, waste your gifts and all the graces I destined to give you in the process. So you can go live a mediocre life not at all being fulfilled because that drive that I put in you is to accomplish your destiny will still be there and you will fill the void feeling incomplete and without real eternal purpose. Simply you'd be living for yourself. Is that what you want?”

No, Lord. Definitely not. From what I read in the book and from what You've taught us, I see where living for yourself gets you. And that is not in a good place. It’s just really hard right now.

Jesus continued, “And the difficulty, Beloved, is building endurance in you and perseverance, which you'll need for the road ahead. You and all My brides. Right now, everyone is in an intense training boot camp. All that I permit and all that I'm doing is building up your spiritual muscles, building you up in virtue and graces, and building you up in the anointing and gifts that'll be given to each of you. The greater ones which I mention in scripture, greater works will you do. John 4:12, Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in Me will do the works I've been doing, and they'll do even greater things than these because I'm going to the Father. There's so much ahead, My beloved bride. So much in store for you all that will give you joy overflowing and at the end of your life great peace and knowing you did what you were created to do and you finished your race well. Right now things seem like a drag because they are. I'm also having to deal with much of your vices and sins, Beloved ones. I'm purifying it out of you, so to speak.”

“There are many things in your character and attitude that will get in the way of what I need you to do and how you will be used. So although it seems you're going through the same test battle after battle and nothing is changing, which is also a lie, I'm using it all to chisel and transform you into the person I created you to be. Do not get weary in doing good, My beloved brides. And when you get to this place of weariness, call out to Me for courage. Many of you do not ask, so you do not receive. What you keep asking Me is to stop the suffering, take the crosses away, and none of that is in My will. So you continue on in your battle after battle, just growing in weariness and in bitterness. Why not ask Me for wisdom? I'm always willing to give that generously. James 1:5, if anyone of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously, all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. Why not ask Me for grace, courage, and strength, too? These are all available to each of you at a greater measure because I know what you're going through, and it's not easy. I also know where you're going, and that is also not easy. You'll need much more to carry on and complete each of your assignments. So, ask Me for all you need to complete your assignments.

“When I was before the soldiers during My questioning between Pilate and Herod, I was beaten mercilessly and senselessly by the Roman soldiers. I was dragged and even clubbed on the head several times. I would have died by head injuries alone if it wasn't for the grace of My father sustaining Me. And I prayed continually, Father, give Me more grace. Give me more courage to finish my assignment with each blow. And that alone sustained Me through unto Calvary. I prayed the whole way. I do not fault you, My brides, for your feelings of weariness, fatigue, and even wanting to give up. You are human. But I want you to have the perspective of eternity at heart and in your mind. Again, ask Me for this not just once, My beloved brides, but several times throughout the day.”

Oh Lord, please give us a perspective of eternity.

“When things get too hard, you feel stuck and you're unable to move forward, just a whisper, a constant whisper will do, ‘Jesus, help Me to get through this day. Give me courage and grace to keep going. Lord, I'm tired, but your word says I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Jesus, give me wisdom on how to pray. What sins are an open door for the enemy?’ Ask Me for all that you need to finish this race, and it will be given to you abundantly. Even call upon the angels to assist you. Ask Me to send My angels to help you with whatever you need in combat, in sickness, in any work or in any emotional attack, in any emotional attack you are having. They can provide relief and will, if you ask Me for it. And lastly, My brides, you must spend more time with Me in trysting prayer. Warfare prayers are good and powerful, but there's nothing quite like being before Me in worship, soaking My presence and allowing Me to minister to you. You'll find so much hope, strength, peace, and joy once your time with Me is done. And even in dryness, much is released in your soul, necessary for you to help you to keep going on.

So I ask, My beloved brides, you've accepted the climb of the mountain of holiness and brotherly love, in which I'm chiseling each of you into an image of Myself. I know it's hard, painful even, but the reward will far outweigh the light and momentary suffering. Your lives are not being recorded here in this world where it will all pass away. But each of your lives are being recorded in heaven and the small acts you do are already impacting eternity. So many souls have come and millions more are destined to come because of your yes and obedience. Even in your weariness, if you continue on. So I ask each of you, will you go on to see the mountaintop view and witness the amazing testimony and miracles I have in store for you? Or would you like to stop now and some returning back to the bottom and others just stopping here at the halfway point and be ever so disappointed when you look back on your life and find out what it could have been?”

That was the end of Jesus' message.

Wow family. What a beautiful message. Lord, we ask for courage. We ask for strength. We ask for the grace to have heaven's perspective moment by moment. And we ask for the assistance of the holy angels today, right now, to help us accomplish the will of God today and to stay in your peace. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. And I'll end with this. A passage from the diary of St. Faustina was a rhema where the Lord gave me and it hit the nail on the head. She's talking about her priest here, but I know she's talking about me and all weary souls; I marvel at how many humiliations and sufferings that priests accept in this whole matter. I see this at particular times and I support them with my unworthy prayers. Only God can give one such courage. Otherwise, one would give up. But I see with joy that all these adversities contribute to God's greater glory.

The Lord has few such souls. Oh, infinite eternity. You make manifest the efforts of heroic souls because the earth rewards their efforts with hatred and ingratitude. Such souls do not have friends. They're solitary. In their solitude, they gain strength. They draw their strength from God alone. With humility, but also with courage, they stand firmly in the face of all the storms that that beat upon them. Like high towering oaks, they are unmoved. And in this, there's just this one secret that is from God that they draw their strength. And everything whatsoever they have need of, they have for themselves and for others. They not only carry their own burdens but also know how to take on and are capable of taking on the burdens of others. They are pillars of light along God's way. They live and light themselves and shed light upon others. They themselves live on the heights and know how to show the way to lesser ones and help them attain those heights.