My Journal Day 1 – In Solitude With the Lord
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May 21, 2025
Hello Family, I am Mother Caroline at the Mission House in Ghana, and I am reading this message on behalf of Brother Robby.
Brother Robby begins,
Today is 12 May 2025, I start my first day in Solitude. I hope to keep a daily journal to share with you, brothers, and sisters, and the Heartdwellers family worldwide. The Lord called me into a 21-day of Solitude in silence with fasting before him. I am to have no human contact until end of the 21 days. No social media.
Every night from 11 PM to 6 AM I keep vigil in Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament in the Prayer room at the Mission House here in Mankessim, Ghana. Before I start my daily Night Vigil I do the Lord's Supper with Mother Caroline. That's the only time I see her, and we are to avoid "unnecessary conversations"
So, I woke up at 5 am this morning, spent an hour in Adoration, committing the solitude and fasting into the hands of Jesus. I invited Blessed Mother to accompany me and asked the Lord to assign Cloud of Witnesses to keep me company.
After my Early morning Adoration, I entered the room where I will be spending the day time resting after night Vigil, and later in silent prayer, meditation and reading of the Bible and other holy books.
This morning, I read the Book of Enoch and also started afresh to read the Diary of Mother Faustina.
I am from a Protestant Evangelical background and therefore purgatory was heresy. But years of listening to Heartdweller messages on YouTube, even before accepting the call to be an intercessor under Mother Elisha, I had accepted the purgatory teaching.
In 2012, I saw my late father in a dream. My father died in 1978. In the dream we were conversing, and he told me it's now that he is at rest, but he had undergone intense suffering. I never understood what he meant but later when I joined the Heartdweller family I thought, could it be he was in purgatory??.
In my reading of the Diary of Faustina this morning I read a part where her guardian angel took her to visit Purgatory. She saw a great crowd of suffering souls.
She stated; “Even though the souls in purgatory were praying for themselves fervently, their prayers were of no avail. But our prayers bring the souls in purgatory relief.
Mother Faustina asked the souls their greatest suffering. In one voice they answered, their greatest torment was longing for God.
When she was leaving purgatory Jesus said to her
“My mercy does not want this, but justice demands it"
I prayed,
“Jesus, may Your mercy triumph over justice, especially for souls in purgatory who have no one interceding for them”.
Mother Faustina shares an Experience she had in a vision at the Judgement Seat of God
# 39
Mother Faustina begins,
Once I was summoned to the judgment [seat] of God. I stood alone before the Lord. Jesus appeared such as we know Him during His Passion. After a moment, His wounds disappeared except for five; those in His hands, His feet and His side. Suddenly I saw the complete condition of my soul as God sees it. I could clearly see all that is displeasing to God. I did not know that even the smallest transgressions will have to be accounted for. What a moment! Who can describe it? To stand before the Thrice-Holy God! Jesus asked me, “Who are you?” I answered, "I am Your servant, Lord." You are guilty of one day of fire in purgatory. I wanted to throw myself immediately into the flames of purgatory, but Jesus stopped me and said, “Which do you prefer, suffer now for one day in purgatory or for a short while on earth?” I replied, "Jesus, I want to suffer in purgatory, and I want to suffer also the greatest pains on earth, even if it were until the end of the world." Jesus said, “One [of the two] is enough; you will go back to earth, and there you will suffer much, but not for long; you will accomplish My will and My desires, and a faithful servant of Mine will help you to do this. Now, rest your head on My bosom, on My heart, and draw from it strength and power for these sufferings, because you will find neither relief nor help nor comfort anywhere else. Know that you will have much, much to suffer, but don't let this frighten you; I am with you."
Jesus, do you have anything to say to your flock?
“Yes, My beloved, purgatory is real. Souls must be holy before they can meet their maker.”
Hebrews 12:14 popped into my mind. It states, "Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy, without which no one will see the Lord".
In purgatory souls are purified from any uncleanness in their souls. In my heart many questions about purgatory were flowing, especially how our prayers for them help and whether there are specific people in purgatory I need to be praying for.
Jesus knew my thoughts and interrupted my anxiety and said,
" Read the testimonies of My saints and other ordinary souls, whom I allowed visits to purgatory while they were still alive, and others I showed visions of purgatory. You will find your answers.
End of Jesus message
Join me to pray for Souls in Purgatory:
O LORD God almighty, I pray to You, by the Precious Blood which Your Divine Son Jesus shed in His bitter crowning with thorns, deliver the souls in purgatory, and in particular that one amongst them all which would be the last to depart out of those pains, that it may not tarry so long a time before it comes to praise You in Thy glory and bless You forever. Amen
End of my Day 1 Journal on my 21-Day solitude.
Until next time, may we earnestly seek purification of our souls while still living. May the boundless mercies of Jesus envelope us.
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