The Struggle Is Real
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March 2, 2026
Hello Lord. I'm here again My love. Thank You for allowing me to come before You to talk to You. I'm even grateful that You even would talk to someone like me. The struggle was really real, Lord. Every day the struggle's real getting out of bed. The struggle's real going to bed. The struggle was real throughout the day. Some days it seems like, okay, I'm on point. I'm on task. Then other days, it seems like I drop the ball all day, every day, and don't know how to pick it back up again. And some days I feel sorry for myself, and other days I don't think about it much.
But if it's one thing that I love that I can count on is that You never change, that You're never ending, and You think good thoughts of me way more than I could ever think of myself. And I'm grateful. I'm grateful to You for all the love You show me. Your patience, Your kindness, Your grace and mercy is so abounding and beautiful. You are such an amazing God that even though the struggle was real every day, I know that I have to keep up the pace just to come to You. I know it may not always be at the exact same time every day. I used to have a real strict rigorous schedule with You. And now, I just do my best to try to keep my mind off of the negative thoughts and to try not to overindulge in them and to try to just do my best to stay before You, Lord.
Even though I know I don't do a good job of it all the time, I'm just thankful for when I do. Jesus is wiping my tears with His hand, with His thumb. You're so beautiful to me. Help me to be better to You that no matter what struggles I go through, I know I need you. I love you. And every day is a different day. Just help me to look forward to each day with You and whatever it is that I can do for You. In all honesty, God, it seems like what I'm doing is meaningless. But I do know that it has a purpose. Even if I don't see it right now, I'm doing my best to understand that it will in heaven. I know that I tell you, can You just take me now while I still have a chance and I'm able to get in heaven before it's too late and something happens and I mess up so bad I can't get in?
And I know to some people that may seem radical. We're rational, but that's my mindset. I just don't want to hurt You and lose You. I don't want to hurt others and lose You. I don't want to destroy my own life and soul and lose You. I cannot live without You. I'm literally addicted to you. I'm literally addicted to Your presence and every fiber of Your being. I look for Your heart throughout the day and when I find them, I make sure I give it back to You in love as well. Is there anything you want to say, my Loves? I’m listening.
Jesus placed His hand on my shoulder. As he standing above me.
“Geralynn, you must realize your life is no longer your own. But it has always been Mine when you made the choice from heaven to choose Me. Yes, I give you all a chance to choose. But everyone does not choose Me. You remember what I told you? How it all began. You are placed before the Father and also the world. And you made a choice. You’ve seen both. But you were so captivated and drawn in and amazed by the love of Our Father that you turned your back on the world that it didn't mean anything to you. And this is how you were chosen as our vessel and you agreed to give Me your whole life and that I can do anything with it that I choose.
“And if I choose to allow suffering, sickness or disabilities, maybe a few extra shortcomings, flaws, and imperfections, then guess what? Am I not worth it? Am I not the one who saved you first and gave you My all without holding anything back, without any hesitation? And most people will say, "Well, what about when Jesus was in the garden of Gethsemane?" Yes. I asked the father if at all possible to take this cup from me, but not My will, His will. That was not hesitation. I still gave up My life willingly. Yes, I needed to be strengthened by the angels in that moment the same way you all do in so many moments of you having. And you call upon Me, even when My Holy Spirit that lives within you utter groans that your words cannot even speak is just the same. And I strengthen you. I send My Angels to strengthen you. Yes, Geralynn. This is how it looks.”
I see a vision of me on my knees crying. And Jesus is right beside me with His arms around my back holding me on His knees crying with me, strengthening me, feeling every bit of things I feel. Wow. Thank You, Jesus. I knew You strengthened us, but I didn't know You were right there holding us through every tear as I see You bottling them. Going straight to the Father's heart. Well, thank you, Papa. I love you.
“And We love you, too, Geralynn. All of you. I just need you to hang on a little longer and be strengthened with My Holy Spirit in your inner man. Cuz this truly is not all there is, My doves.”
Jesus lifted my chin and smiled. Such a beautiful smile He has, eyes so beautiful and bright. I love you, Jesus.
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