Sitting At My Love's Feet

March18, 2026

Lord, truly my sins are like a sandbag that I can't keep up with. It seems like every time I turn around and I repent for this, I repent for that. It's just constant repetitive repentance, which I know you say we were supposed to have, true heartfelt repentance, full deliverance. And I was just really, really down on myself about it. And I know God that You don't bring condemnation, just conviction, which is what we need. Because when we're laid down with condemnation, how do you get up from that? You just constantly keep beating yourself down more. But it also helps me to recognize that I'm no better than anyone else. Quickly to judge and criticize and point out the flaws and imperfections and the mistakes of others. And when you show me myself in Your mirror, I see I don't look any different. You're teaching me as a soldier of God not to get involved with civilian affairs. You're teaching me to be more silent. You're really showing me in detail these sins that I truly cannot keep up with. And the more I try, the more it seems the bag of sand seems to leak.

But I decided to give it to You and just also ask Mama Mary to pray for me to put it all in her hands where she can take it straight to You, Father, Jesus. And I know I'll get a quicker response. No shade, but it's just something about when we tell someone's mother about them, on them or we need something and that mother's a good mother. Those children are going to listen. They're going to respect her. The same way when You turned the water into wine, You said that ‘it's not My time,’ but Your mother knew that You would do it just because she asked. Wasn't anything bad. And what did she do out of faith? She told them, "Do whatever he tells you."

That's confidence knowing that when our Mama Mary, our spiritual Mother in heaven come to you and say, "Hey, I got Geralynn on the line here and she needs a right now assistance. I trust that it'll come." Thank you, Mother Mary. I call her Mama Bear. She surely watches over us like a Mama Bear will watch over her cub and I love it. And then You gave me Your word, which is Psalms 32:5. As I was getting ready to take communion, I took a rhema first and it says, "Then I acknowledged my sin to You and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord, and You forgave the guilt of my sin."

Thank you, My love, for Your forgiveness of my sins and removing the guilt, the shame. Oh Lord, I thank You for it so much. Bless You. Is there anything that you want to say? Any of You guys, I'm listening. Papa, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Mama Bear, all of heaven, I'm here.

Please, as I lament for my sin, forgive me. I thank You for listening. I thank You for loving me. I thank You for forgiving me. I thank You for letting me be here now.

“Yes Geralynn, My dove. Keep on moving forward, listening to Me. This is the most important and best thing you can do is listen. Comprehend for My discernment. Getting your wisdom, knowledge, and understanding from Me. Repenting, turning away from your sins, acknowledging them, making sure that you do your best, that this is not repetitive, willful sin, and when you fall short, always come to Me. Don't stay away. Because when you stay away, the enemy gets more traction. He begins to gain more ground in your life. Something that you don't want or need. I remember Geralynn and that I taught you a long time ago that it's best if you come to Me quickly. Don't let it linger. Don't stand there by the altar.

Get on the altar. Because the more you stand there by the altar debating with Satan, the more quickly he'll grab your arm, and you'll walk away feeling so much guilt and condemnation, something that I never desired or designed for you to do. And then comes the heaviness.

“And it's so much that I have to lift off of you through the heaviness, through the sadness, through the depression, through the resistance of you giving in to Me to come back. Remember? And then the longer you stayed away, My peace left, My joy left, and the racing mind came back and you were more worse off than you were before. So just listen to Me this time when you have anything going on. Lament, if you have to come Me as my other saints did and beat your chest before Me on your knees crying out what you've done more than once in your sorrow and your repentance. I need this real true heartfelt repentance so that I can help you to turn away from it and remain in the good graces before you as you walk in them. My grace and My mercy is new every morning. I'm not holding on to the past. You are. Let it go. Haven't your sins and your mistakes taught you anything?”

Yes, Jesus. It taught me not to stay away. Taught me more humility. Taught me more shut up, be quiet, silence. Even though I still have trouble and problems with these, it taught me some things. I learned from them. And I want to keep learning. And I know the only way I'll be able to keep learning this is not stay where I am. But as they say in You higher heights and deeper depths, I want to go further from here, God. So forgive me for my stagnation. Help me to be more obedient. And mama bear, keep praying for me.

Thank you all for not giving up on me and helping me not to give up on myself through these sins. I know I'm going to sin. I'm in the flesh. And for me to think that I wouldn't would be a very, very grave mistake. But I want You to know that I love You. And I thank You for taking time out for me and most importantly to die for me so that I can do this and to be better for You as You are Your best for our God, Our Father. Pray for me all of heaven, Jesus that I will do my best every day for You guys too. Thank you. I love you. Amen.

“Trials, testing, and tribulation will come, My doves. But the most important thing you can do is stay in the race. And remember, I'm in the race with you. For the race is not given to the swift, nor the quick, but to those who endure to the end with Me. Amen. Come here, My dove. Let me hold you. You see this bowl before you? This liquid, it's filled with your tears. I waste nothing. Come on with Me. Let Me show you the most valuable place that I put them and keep them. Not in a vault to be unused, but to pour out on the world for those who are lamenting, who are sorrowful, who are hopeless, and who need so much more of Me than themselves. And some just don't see it, so I pour. Some do. So I pour more and more out on the world. Your bottle tears are never wasted. They are used in the most miraculous ways and signs and wonders and miracles in the lives of so many others.

Won't you come with me more? So I can show you the vastness of all of you guys' tears? On the world and even on My heart, just a drop for my heart so much more in the lives and hearts of others. Amen. Keep on lamenting. Keep on praying. Keep on thanking and fasting. I hear you all. I see you all and I receive it all. I take it and I use it. Nothing is never wasted, My dear.”

Thank you, Jesus. He's rubbing the side of my face as He showed me, pouring out my tears, our tears on the world, and a drop on His heart. Amen.