The Way To Heaven Is Not Your Works But How You Loved

Hello Lord, thank you for your great mercy towards me and always desiring to communicate with me to give me council and direction.

Sorry I feel like I have been in a cloud of confusion and a little bit afraid to step forward in many things because of fear of deception and attachment and wanting to make sure that I am in your will.

As an aside family, yesterday I got a rhema from Mother Angelica book and it was about stepping out in fear. It was a funny read about courage and that its not the absence of fear but rather courage is being on the front lines and still being scared to death. When writing this message I wanted to add exactly the words she said so I opened her book and landed somewhere else but its such confirmation another advice from her that I want to share Is called Mothers Greatest Fear,

“I’m not afraid to fail, because I’ve always learned something when I’ve failed. I’ll tell you what I’m afraid of and when I think about it I break into a cold sweat- I’m scared to death of dying and having the Lord say to me, “Angelica, this is what you might have done had you trusted more. “

I’m petrified of that. I chucked to myself hmm I really need to trust the Lord more. Because I had been thinking that the life I live is far from the habited religious life that was so focused on charity and poverty.

Its hard to live that way married now in the world where our lifestyle carries a bit more upkeep then I desire and I wonder if what we are doing is pleasing to you

Jesus began,

“All of this I have ordained little one trust Me there are times and seasons for everything. Remember the habit is not so much about the clothing, but the heart and that is why I gave you the rhema yesterday not condemn you, but to rather encourage you that true poverty is frugality, simplicity, purity and kindness. You have been exerting those virtues very much, but you can grow in them much much more. Now with more responsibilities and moving into your own place I want you to keep that in the back of your mind.

“I have paired you and your husband nicely. There are things that are practical and most necessary to you livelihood and to keep things running like with the vehicle and the farm that I have given him the wisdom for and you are very mindful of what is spent and how its spent on yourselves as well so you balance each other out being accountable to one another and accountable to me as you steward all that I give you for the sake of the work ahead. I am speaking to you go give you much peace. You have toiled in our mind whether or not the direction you are taking is in My will. Do you not see the fruit and how things are coming together?”

Yes, Lord but I also know the enemy and my flesh can do that. Just take me of course just a little bit and before I know it I look back and I am so off course. You sent me here to do the City of God Sacred Heart Refuge Community and I day dream when we can finally began to work towards that.

Jesus responded,

“That is part of your life’s work, but you have it wrong. I sent you here beloved to be a missionary of love that is your vocation. You must also believe in your heart what you preach to others. I bringing this forth to expose how you are too attached to this work. You are, but an instrument, it is My work to bring to past how I desire it and when I desire it. So let go of the day dream and trust in My promise and be available here each day moment by moment in what I present and give to you whether its joy, pleasure or sorrow. These are all gift from My hand to labor for love to be who you have always been called to be Love in My Church.

Let that be your only desire in every action, motivation and speech and you will fulfill the destiny I have for you.”

Wow Lord I am so sorry I didn’t even notice that, maybe I also feel the pressure of time and things ramping up and seeing the other communities like those on the mountain and the one in the desert thrive in the building and coming together and it feels like we haven’t started anything.

“Well, that is another problem, you are comparing. Look to Me beloved look to Me. I gave the promise to Mother Clare about her community and unbeknownst to her it didn’t start until 20 plus years later after she followed My council to live in town, in the world again and start ministry online. She didn’t realize through her obedience and the task I put before her was leading her right into her destiny and rather sanctifying her and forming her in preparation for the community she would one day run.

“Each soul and each story has its own course. Do not look to have the same story as another or think that I will work in the same way. I work uniquely and differently with each work I have in mind and everything, I mean everything serves a purpose. Your diligence to be faithful at home with ministry and juggle responsibilities as a wife and help in your mother in laws house has helped build you and rather prepare you to be more disciplined wit your time, teaching you the culture, how to cook and manage a household here all in preparation for the home you will solely be responsible over.

“The souls I have had you meet, to shepherd, nurture and mother are all in preparing for the many souls that will be entrusted to you and these very souls, many of them, will come to help with the City of God community. I am not only changing lives through you, but building long lasting relationship for the purpose of those who have been called to help, you see. The outreach I have you do allows you to see the needs of the community, the aid that is needed the cost that it will take to truly meet needs and the areas of service in this country that have fallen short for the poor and deprived so once you began to build the community you will know where you can rise up over and beyond to give the best and quality service to others for free because you have seen the depravation .

“You see, everything serves a purpose, the farming is most necessary. You both have no idea the work that it entails, its hard labor. Farming, takes much patience, many mistakes, and the joy in seeing the fruit of your labor come to harvest. It truly is a great hands on example of the work in a soul. Farming allows the farmer to truly grow in virtue and sanctification by the many trials and obstacles and labor that it entails. Because what you put in, is what you get out of”

And as Jesus was speaking this scripture came to my mind

‘Laziness’ in the Bible promises: I passed by the field of the lazy man, by the grapes fines of the man without understanding. And see, it was all grown over with thorns. The ground was covered with weeds and its stone wall was broken down. When I saw it, I though about it. I looked and received teaching. A little sleep a little rest a little folding of hands to rest and your being poor will come as a robber and your need like a man ready to fight Proverbs 24:30-34 and another

A hard working farmer should receive first some of what he gathers from the field 2 Timothy 2:6

I see, Lord.

“Yes, beloved so the both of you and those involved will grow much in discipline and diligence. There is no room for laziness or shortcuts when it comes to farming or you will pay for it and both of you are accustomed to areas of laziness and cutting corners which can be detrimental to the work I have entrusted to you two in the future. So this new season of farming for you both is very necessary to mature you, to strengthen you, equip you and most importantly teach you reliance on Me. As in the rhema given to you this morning in In Sinu Jesu there will be many obstacles.

“Do not concern yourself with them or allow it to bring you anxiety. Immediately they come I will ensure they will melt like Ice before you as you hand everything, I mean everything, to My Mother. She will take it as if you’re passing her a bag of cement you are carrying for building; a Heavenly assembly line if you will and that is why the prayers of the saint are most necessary to this work. Do not rely so much on yourself, your ability or even on your prayers. Offer them up and enlist the intercession of the saints I have put over this ministry and work and just as an assembly line construction a building you release the burden like a brick and pass it on them and they pass it on to Me and you have no need to worry any further.

“If anything, you ask is in My will it will be done for you. It’s that simple, In My time and in the way that I desire it. So rest in that beloved, rest in that. You both are in My will and the prayer you prayed with the men at the starch factory brought Me great pleasure and delight.”

As an aside when we went to a different town to look at the land. We met up with some very important people who made a decision to support us and I felt led afterwards if they would all be willing to pray to consecrate this work to the Lord and they did!

“Your Angles were there and they heard and were overjoyed. You all came in agreement to consecrate this work to Me for My purpose and I have heard and answered you. I will do just that. Do not fear, but keep stepping out in faith and trusting more and more your beloved leading and discernment I am moving through Him”

Wow Lord thank you for so much clarity I was beginning to get overwhelmed again now what is priority to you?

“Take care of the needs of others and all else will be provided for. The boys have been waiting and are in need of medical treatment began the campaign for that. Began to get the soul ready for her courses and finding her a place. She will be a great source of help in the future and go ahead and make the purchases for the priest so they can have all they need to do the Lord Supper properly. All else will be made available to you when needed. Write down your needs for the house and leave them with Me and at the appointed time provision will be available to get them. Buy simply and decorate simply. Truly that place will be a house of prayer. a foundation for the prayer community, the City of God to come.

“Seek Me in all things and wait for My council and direction before moving forward in anything. That is how Satan will grab you both with certain opportunity that seem well, but will take you away from the responsibilities you already have. So be at peace, the farming is My will for you two in preparation for the building of the City of God. Do not concern yourself with what the donors may think, I will give all understating concerning My will and its good to give updates as you have showing the process of this journey so far.”

Thank you Jesus for your words of kindness , counsel and peace thank you so much Do you have a word for the flock?

“Yes, beloved. My dear ones I continue to expose this little ones life so that you may learn from the lessons, challenges and trials she faces. Every message, even when given concerning a personal situation of hers has a message in there for you. Too many of you My brides are so attached to the “work”, to the labor of love that I have instructed you to do. When a soul gets engrossed in ministry or work too many times your identity is in that because you have invested your time, your resources, your give your money and sometimes life, to build something for Me.

“But that can become an Idol and you forget your purpose and destiny it to simply be My brides, to be an instrument of love that I can use in anyway. The more that you are yielded and surrended trusting Me to bring you to the expected end the more that I have the freedom in leading you and counseling you into My perfect will which is moment by moment, day by day.

“It would be good My brides to study the lives of the saints like My little flower St. Therese and St Bernedette whom I used in the most ordinary and sometimes peculiar ways. St. Therese was seen as an ordinary religious sister in her convent there was no special work she did that can be praised, no monasteries or basilicas she built or even communities she started. She was so ordinary that even in her death one of the sisters mentioned that there would be nothing grand to say about her.

“She just went about her work in the most mundane ordinary way to others that is, but for Me she did things in great love always sacrificing herself in the smallest of ways that only I knew about and her sacrifice was great. She truly was My mothers daughter and because of it has been highly honored in Heaven because I resist the proud and rather exalt the true humble and pure soul. St. Bernedtte was used as an instrument to relay messages for My mother and because gained popularity and fame for a time which came with much persecution.

“After the apparitions, I led her into a convent where she died in obscurity nothing of fame or grandeur was written about her after the apparitions. Some souls would feel useless, rejected or feel as though they are no longer relevant.

Her goal wasn’t to be relevant, but rather to do My will and once the work I had created her for was done she was at peace and said, the Blessed Mother used Me like a broom and put me back in My place”

Wow, what humility and detachment

“She understood very well that she was an instrument, and the work wasn’t hers nor the results of anything, but rather to live moment by moment in what I used her for and what I provide for. So My brides you too must have the same mindset. Some feel envy for little mother and others within Heartdwellers who seem to be being used by Me and you feel yourself useless, not doing anything that shows fruit or relevance. But its in the ordinary day to day task My beloved brides that you grow in grace and sanctification as I give you opportunities to do everything in love.

“That is your vocation too Heartdwellers, is to become lovers on this Earth. In all that you do loving like your bridegroom, putting others first, and yourself last that is your life’s work. It wont matter us much when you stand before Me presenting all the work that you have done for Me, but yet you didn’t learn how to love, your motives were self centered, selfish, impure, for the fame and honor of man or for your fame and honor not mine.

“All of that will be exposed in the light of truth before all of Heaven. It will be the housewives, the children, the grandmas and grandpas. The husbands who lived for Me, the ordinary everyday man and women who had no title, who were not known, but were faithful with everything and loved Me and their neighbor like in all that they did that will receive the highest seat as kings and queens in Heaven.

“Not as many ministers, pastors or Christians who do much work and labor for me but not in love. One thing is necessary My Marthas, Marthas, Marthas you are troubled by many things but only one thing is necessary remember but Mary chose the better portion. That is to sit at my feet, learn from me, and imitate me in love, in faithfulness, in obedience, and in humility that is the true way to Heaven.”

And that was the end of Jesus’ message.