Your Soul Is Still Growing, Don't Be Discouraged

July 24, 2025

Jesus, I have been terrible and stinking in my thinking. Thank you for touching my heart this morning and alleviating me from the sins of my heart

Oh, family, I have been a hot mess, a really stinky one. I had a trial, as I mentioned, and I found myself full of frustration, resentful and bitter, because of the pain of the past. After the demonic attack in the middle of the night, I had reached out to my beloved and decided to stay up and pray. I saw him online, but he didn’t respond until an hour later. It was a trigger. I was already agitated, mind you, because of the attack. All of a sudden, I became inflamed with anger and frustration, just brooding over all the records of wrongs done in the past. And he hadn’t even done anything. It was just things from the past. I should have known better, as satan and his demons would build this justified case in my mind against him as I felt ignored waiting for a response. It didn’t make it any better when I got the rhema…

She placed her happiness in living a hidden life, ignoring all created things, detaching herself from creatures conquering her own self-will. She rejoices in being forgotten and being considered as a person of no account

I thought, “Really, Lord?” as I was sulking in self-pity and resentment. Before I knew it, I was wrapped up in the enemy’s cords, and my heart was very heavy and hurting painfully. I knew I had stewed over these thoughts and feelings too long, and now they had taken root. When I woke up, I was weary, tired, and just angry.    I was irritable, agitated, and annoyed at everyone and everything all day. I didn’t even talk with my beloved because I was still angry at him. On top of that, poor him, He had been very sick from a terrible cold for days now, and I didn’t care. I was all in my feelings. Oh boy, I couldn’t even do the Lord’s Supper. I got a rhema from Mother Angelica’s book about dryness in prayer, to press in anyway. So, I just received the Lord instead.

I had a dream the following night where I was in a car with family members on this very high garage carport. The person driving parked too far back to the point that the car was tipping backwards, about to fall over. I left the back of the car to jump into the passenger side, thinking it would help, but my weight tipped the car over we fell. As I braced myself for this crash in the dream, the scene changed to where we were all lying on the floor instead, not too badly hurt but needing attention. When I went into the place to get medical help, they mentioned two of us had cancer and had an X-ray scanner that could see in your veins and muscles. I just knew that I was one of the ones with the cancer. They confirmed that and had me sit down to scan my leg for the cancer. To their amazement it was gone! Then a young lady started prophesying to me in front of everyone. She mentioned how God had given my marriage great favor and all the amazing things He was going to do in my marriage. It felt so real. As she continued I told her to hold on let me get my phone to record what she was saying so I wouldn’t forget the prophetic word. A lot more happened in the dream afterwards, but when I woke up I remembered some of the details of the dream but forgot all the prophetic words the young lady was giving to me. I felt the cancer was about my heart, the root of bitterness I had allowed to spread had turned cancerous. But just like in the dream, Gods mercy had healed me. My heart didn't hurt as bad as the day before but it was still hurting. I then decided to pull rhema cards from my file and one I pulled said,

Don’t be discouraged your soul is growing!

I thought wow hmm what does that mean?

The second Rhema was from Job,

Though He slay me, I will still praise Him, A prisoner of God’s wounded love.

I mustered enough courage to come before the Lord, now truly repentant and sorry for my horrible attitude and thoughts I had for the past two days. I had not had the time to listen for a message for a few days and was really struggling, wondering if the Lord would speak to me. But I tried anyway.

Then I heard,

“You can always come Beloved. Not only are you a friend of the bridegroom but your His bride”

Holy Spirit is that you? I began to doubt again.

Holy Spirit began,

“Why have you stopped writing? Continue, Beloved. Yes, you have allowed your own shame and guilt from coming to hear us speak. The message received from The Passion Translation was very deliberate on Our part. It’s in the presence of the Lord you find your healing especially when you have messed up. Don’t run or coward even when you’re upset with Him (He said smiling) come and let us reason together. (Isaiah 1:18)

He is the perfect friend and the perfect spouse. I am the perfect gentleman—key word gentle— especially with His brides.”

Thank you for your graciousness and your mercy towards me, Holy Spirit. Thank you for that dream. I don’t fully understand it, but I believe there were some key parts there for me to take from it.

“Yes, Beloved, any time you give yourself over to criticism and resentment, justified with accusations, you can be sure a root of bitterness has grown, and it’s like a cancer that needs to be dealt with immediately before it spreads. The assignments against you are very deliberate. So, you must be smarter than the devils, and not get into your flesh. But recognize what they are trying to do. Although this time you recognized it, you gave in to it because the case they built in your mind, against your beloved, felt justified. So, rather, you came into agreement with it than casting down the lofty argument. I want you to know, things are changing, beloved, and for the better. They will continue to get more subtle with their attacks to trigger you and tear down all that is being built up between you two.  However, with all things we use for your good, to address the deeper issues in your soul that need to be cleaned out.”

Sorry, Lord. I see that now, Holy Spirit. Hmm, I see that now. Please clean out my soul—the depths of it in the hidden places. Can you give me an understanding of what that means, that my soul is growing?

“Just as the thoughts were being downloaded to you, my little one, you have a body, a soul, and a spirit. That was very intentional by God the Father, to represent Us, the Holy Trinity, for we all three work in the lives of a soul to bring it to full stature. You can say the soul is a representation of the Father, for there lies the will, mind and emotions that is what satan is after because he has the greatest authority to hurt the body and the spirit if it’s not given over to us. Then you have the body, which is likened to a suit— the temple to house the soul. Like Christ, who came in the flesh, in body, to be a representation of the Father. And then you have the Spirit of a man, which is a representation of Me. A soul can have a spirit of this world or have Me, the Holy Spirit. Once they have given their lives to Christ, I come to dwell within their temple—their body, and then the war between their flesh and their spirit begins. In order to bring their soul into subjection, surrender to Me, the Holy Spirit. That is what the scripture says, Romans 8:7 The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God, it does not submit to God’s law nor can it do so.”

Romans 8:7-1

⁷ For the sinful nature is always hostile to God. It never did obey God’s laws, and it never will. ⁸ That’s why those who are still under the control of their sinful nature can never please God.

⁹ But you are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God living in you. (And remember that those who do not have the Spirit of Christ living in them do not belong to him at all.) ¹⁰ And Christ lives within you, so even though your body will die because of sin, the Spirit gives you life because you have been made right with God. ¹¹ The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.

¹² Therefore, dear brothers and sisters, you have no obligation to do what your sinful nature urges you to do.

I see, Holy Spirit. Okay, Wow!

“So, when a soul is growing, it is growing in conformity to the Spirit of God. That is what is happening with you and all the brides of Christ. Just as your body grows, your soul grows from glory to glory. From darkness to light, from Holy to the Holy of Holies. Just as explained with the outer courts, the inner courts, and the Holy of Holies. There are different degrees of a soul’s surrender and submission on this earth. Those who lived the majority for themselves, although saved but were ruled more by their flesh, will be in the outer courts. As it says in Scripture, there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. Then you have those souls who will be in the inner courts, they lived more for the Kingdom of God and a greater level of purity than those in the outer courts. But they were comfortable where they had gotten and didn’t grow any further in the knowledge of the One who saved and gave them life. They loved God, but still lived for themselves in many areas. So, they will be in the inner courts but still far from the Holies of Holies.

Then there are His brides, those who loved God and lived for Him until the end. They look just like the bridegroom in their deeds, actions, and motivation, even in their death, whether physical or spiritual. These are the souls with a life laid down, giving it all for their beloved bridegroom, whose souls have grown into the full measure and stature God had destined for them and have been led by Me, the Spirit of God, and subjected their soul to their spirit. Living not by the flesh but by the Spirit of God, and therefore, imitated Christ on this earth in the best way they could. So, their souls resemble His a lot more, and therefore, they will be in the Holy of Holies. That is the road picked out for you, My little one, and all His brides who would respond to correction and allow us to purify and refine the areas of their soul that need to be uprooted and cleaned out. Your soul will grow. Remember, beloved ones, growth comes from pruning.

Even when Satan attacks and a wound occurs, allow us to go deep. Not just cleaning the surface of the wound but go into the depths of your soul to find the source of that trigger that warranted the response you gave. There is always a deeper issue. The deeper you allow us to go, the deeper you are purified, cleaned, and made whole. So, Beloved, your soul is growing, and that of the many brides of Christ. My beloved ones, continuously come in the presence of God. Allow Him into those dark places, those areas that continue to be an issue and source where satan uses as triggers and buttons to push you into negative thinking of yourself or others. Come running to us when you’re wounded, angry, even resentful in this way and allow us to turn the trial into a blessing.”

That was the end of Holy Spirit’s message.

I then pulled a rhema to confirm this message and it said, When I worry about what I said or done. I then recollect myself for a moment and say: “Alas, I am still at the point from which I started. But I say this with grace peace and without sadness. It is truly sweet to feel weak and little

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