I am growing the faith of my faithful

Hello family. This morning I was just getting over some news that saddened me. It was about a relative of mine who was 4 months pregnant and they were about to do a gender reveal but found out two days before, the baby had no heart beat.

We stood in faith and believe as I struggled with that belief at times wondering: Lord, what’s Your will? I didn’t want to get my hopes disappointment because I know the Lord allows suffering. However, others around me really were on fire in faith decreeing and declaring, so I began to do the same as I felt my faith was being stirred up again to rather believe for joy than a momentary trial and suffering which I am accustomed to.

Then I got the call that the baby came out and it was still-born. I became despondent as I mused over in my mind how many times I had believed but rather met with the opposite of what I was praying for and asking the Lord how contradictions can build our faith because now I feel really weak in faith.

Then here, there is much conflicting views concerning the Israel and Palestine war. There is so much tearing down of Israel as the news and clips continuously show babies, mothers and children being harmed in Palestine which demonizes Israel even more and here at home there is such strong opinion against Israel. I felt saddened by some of the images of what I was shown but I have learned to be quite and was just trusting what the Lord told me concerning what is really going on and that He is in the middle of everything but again my faith was becoming wobbly by what I was hearing and the opinion of others wondering if I got it right with the message

I came before the Lord,

Good morning.

Jesus began,

“My heart is moved to pity for you and all My Brides. I have great compassion for you in all your trials and sufferings. Some are being called to carry heavier burdens than others but even the most acute suffering of the soul I have great compassion for. Nothing is wasted my beloved Brides I mean nothing. There are so many souls in need of grace and mercy in this hour so many beloved one.

That is why I am asking for much more. Do not be moved by the horrendous things being said about Israel in the news. War Is terrible to Me, know that. I don’t desire it nor is it the way I intended for man to resolve conflict. This came from Abel and Cain the first time the sin of murder entered into the heart of man and has increased ever since. Even now more so for the fulfillment of prophecy and the end to come. All nations will rise against Israel surrounding her with such hatred do not be moved when that time comes and what is going on is preparing the ground for that.”

Zechariah 12:2-3

Behold, I will make Jerusalem a cup of drunkenness to all the surrounding peoples. Judah will be besieged, as well as Jerusalem. 3 On that day, when all the nations of the Earth gather against her, I will make Jerusalem a heavy stone for all the peoples; all who would heave it away will be severely injured.

I am saddened by all the death Lord, the babies, the sick, the children.

“I am too beloved but you must remember I don’t see death as you see death especially the innocent ones. They return back to me their maker, returning from which they came from not only do I redeem them but many graces are released on Earth for their loved ones salvation. In this hour many souls will return to me because of the death of their loved ones. Pray for the hardened hearted ones and the rebellious ones to respond to the grace of salvation when it comes.”

Yes, Lord I am also saddened Lord by the death of the baby. I was talking to you in the bathroom about how my faith has just bit a bit shot.

As an aside, One of our intercessors had a message and within the message they questioned why many in the group seemed afflicted, burdened by suffering and continuous oppression. This was the second time an intercessory made a similar comment, she was coming from a protestant background. Coming from a protestant background myself you are taught to speak in faith, declare in faith decree and believe it. There is no room that something bad, suffering or even death can be the will of God nooo.

I know the answer as Jesus has told us time and time again Heartdwellers we are His bride, we are wounded lovers and we consented to these cross more importantly suffering is actually good for us. Despite what we think it conforms us to the image of Christ and allows us to truly become His Brides that when he returns we look just like him and lastly we now know that true faith is seeking God to do his will not what we want or what we think is right for us but what is the will of God and many times he allows these things so we can trust His will. So to many times our flesh and the natural eyes you see oppression and suffering as an indicator something is wrong when rather its that you are doing something right and receiving opposition and also that the Lord is testing your faith and it can become a means to our salvation

“Well beloved, your faith is actually growing leaps and bounds”

I thought: really, Lord? I am not stepping out to heal people or pray for people as I should I feel so lukewarm.

“Well I don’t want you to strive beloved just be my bride and child. I will began to blow on the embers of your heart during this trip as you water these gifts and you see my hands move through you and your beloved to bring healing and deliverance to many. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the absence of thing not yet seen”

As an aside family Father Derricks faith is really refreshing to me. He doesn’t see suffering the same as we have been taught and I realize all my trials have burdened me and made me war torn rather than having child like faith I just tend to think a cross is coming rather than consolation and its true many times usually that is the case. Padre Pio once In order to attract us, the Lord grants us many graces that we believe can easily obtain Heaven for us. We do not know, however, that in order to grow, we need hard bread: the cross, humiliation, trials and denials.

I think many of us can loose sight of that, that we are being matured especially as Heartdwellers Jesus has matured us greatly that faith is not decreeing, declaring Gods word but its rather believing even when you don’t see, its simply submitting to the will of God. Help us Lord

“You had faith to believe the best for your relative and her child and you prayed what you felt was my will. Most importantly you prayed My word and believed and for that it was accounted to you as righteousness and faith. All though it was My will to take him home your faith has not diminished. I understand your disappointment but I wok all things out for the good of those who are called for my purpose. Baby Ozias served his purposed and I will restore your relatives health in order to sustain another child birth but she must take her health more seriously.”

Thank you Lord. As I pondered on what He was saying, I remembered a testimony video I watched and cried so inspired by this women faith and so empathetic towards her pain. She had 4 children, three boys and one girl. A single mother who was Asian and Christian. Her first child was found to have cancer he was in mid twenties. They fasted prayed and even documented his journey in hopes he would be healed, but he died. She was devastated only to find out the second born now had the same cancer at the same age of her first son after some time of his death. They fasted and prayed recorded his journey on video believing for healing and he died.

The last son decided to take preventive caution to eat healthy taking vitamins to ensure he wouldn’t get cancer and he got it at the same age as his elder brothers. They stood in faith and this time the women cried out to God to not take her last born as she was being interviewed she cried remembering the pain as they showed the video footage. He was even engaged to be married and got marred in the hospital and he died.

To watch such suffering was heart wrenching trying to understand God in all of this was thought provoking but at the end of the video full of tears running down her faith she said she never lost her faith it was tested but she knows God is faithful, she still believes and will serve him although it wasn’t his will to keep her children alive she knows she will see them again and now she will enjoy the rest of her days with her only child left her daughter. I thought wow… now that is faith.

Jesus continued,

“The greatest faith is when a soul believes despite seeing. You have conveyed this before when the story of the mother who lost all her sons continue to have faith when met with such a grievous trial. You cried inspired and in awe at her faith because that is faith in action. Despite her cries to me, her prayers, and her pleas, she submitted to My will upon taking each of her children and has not lost faith in me. For that she will receive a crown of faith. Its easy to believe, to be excited to be inspired when you pray and it is done but in this hour I am stretching the faith of My faithful ones , teaching and equipping you to fight the good fight of faith which has not be taught as much as I have desired in My Church. That type of faith will be needed for the things that will take place upon this Earth soon. For as the scripture says: mans hearts will fail them.

Luke 21:25-27:

And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars; and upon the Earth distress of nations, with perplexity; the sea and the waves roaring; men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the Earth: for the powers of Heaven shall be shaken.

“My Brides, hearts will not fail but will be steadfast in faith. Because they have believed despite all the suffering trials, death, and decay that will surrounded them they will not lose hope but look to the hills where their help comes from. I am growing the faith of my faithful.”

And that was the end of Jesus’ message.

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