I Challenge All My Brides To Write a Gratitude List

Hello Brothers and Sisters and Heartdwellers family. We are in India now and stopped in a different city for some meetings before we go to work with Sister Jahnavi and her husband, who pastor several churches. We went earlier this summer and we put the vlogs and videos on the channel.

We have been able to raise $1,000 to donate to ministry activities there. We will be serving several hundred people. They are still in need of about $2,800 so please, if you feel led to donate to India; send via PayPal or through our account with a note that says “India”. We will be there for almost three weeks and any amount would be greatly appreciated.

During our trip the first time, it was wonderful but had some painful trials between me and Father Derrick newly married. I was hoping we wouldn’t be hit in the same way because it was so distracting. Although the Lord warned that every mission trip would have its own suffering and the enemy would try to cause dissension between us, I didn’t think it would be as difficult.

I found myself in the midst of our painful trial that had hit us exactly the same time last year. I was burdened this morning with various emotions and heartaches weary from just getting over sickness and now dealing with tensions of the day.

Lord, again around this time.. I am so sorry for my attitude. I would like to say I’m sincere but I’m not sure if I am. I have so much bitterness and anger in my heart.

Lord, I need Your mercy to help to navigate through my emotions and the pain. Everything in me wants to give up and just leave this mission life, all of this; because I am not sure if I can keep going through it Lord. You said this trip wouldn’t be as bad, and it feels like it is.. You already know my questions; and in the songs You played in worship this morning, You asked me to lay them down. The channel needs a message as well.

Lord I am at Your mercy, please give me Your perspective and heal my brokenness.

Jesus began,

“I am right here.. I am right here.

You’re not contending with Me, but with demons feeding you all types of suggestions and scenarios of the worst kind.”

Lord, they always seem to happen and I’m constantly trying to fight this good fight of faith constantly and being disappointed.

“My beloved, all you are seeing is smoke-screens and shadows. You both have come a long way and still have quite a bit to go, but things always are not as bad as they seem. I allow this trial and the enemy of your soul and his demons take full advantage to jump at the opportunity to cause you to be hopeless, despairing and utterly discouraged that you do not move forward or better yet – you give up and leave Me.

“They have tried and tried, and failed and failed, and will continue to – why? Because you are Mine. Your heart is Mine, beloved. I know it’s painful, all that you’re going through. I am suffering with you, but nothing is wasted, it will bare fruit. It will bare fruit even in his life. I am using you as a tool and instrument of sanctification and love for him as well. This trip hasn’t ended yet, although satan and his demons want it to end. So it still goes to say, you have brighter days ahead and will end this year with joy and salutations. You are allowing bitterness, unforgiveness and resentment to consume you beloved, don’t allow it.

But Lord, it’s so hard.. I can’t seem to swim out of the muck. The thoughts keep bombarding me of this cycle, that this will happen again on the next trip and that all my efforts and prayers seem to be futile

Jesus responded,

“I told you all of this ahead of time that it would be best to keep quiet and pray. There are times I have you speak because the atmosphere around you is more clear, less static, less demons and his heart is ready to receive. Many times you cannot see the amount of demonic interference around you two. If you could see it, it would take your breath away and rather than fighting one another you would immediately have a righteous anger and pray. But you don’t see it and you don’t listen from time to time; you fall right into their preying hands. I allow this to train you, also to test you in love, but even in your failures, I make provision for them”

“Breath little one; let it go and forgive. The novena to Padre Pio will be very helpful to you beloved, so you don’t continue on in your hardness of heart. I need you to forgive just as I have forgiven you. The enemy continues to steal your joy in moments where there should be profound gratitude.”

Mother Elisha: I just continue to hear things will always be like this..

Jesus answered my thoughts –

“No, things won’t always be like this, but you are becoming aware of cycles of assignments according to their calendar. (and as an aside; Jesus is talking about the satanists and witches) You have been taught the days of the month that are highly sensitive to demonic influences because of curses are the 21st, 22nd and 23rd of every month and always after halloween. I warned you beloved and all My Brides – after every big satanic feast days there’re many rituals leading up to their celebrations and even afterwards as thanksgiving, that are released on Christians. From now on, expect rough waters from November up until the new year.

“Each time it won’t be the same, but many curses and assignments are released after halloween for Christians to be at odds on the highest religious holiday; Christmas. If they can’t cause division, they will cause distraction, greed and avarice, so My precious ones miss the importance of the sweetest holiday -it is not lights and gifts; but it’s Me. How I am always forgotten as the world surrounds this time with celebration and news about Me, but not really focused on Me. But a small few who desire to sit at My feet and meditate about the most amazing gift given to the world, to liberate them from death and give them great hope through salvation in Me.

“The sufferings I allow on My chosen ones release many, many, graces for those who don’t know Me to know Me. For those who feel distant and far from Me, to receive a touch from Me and respond to My consolation. So your suffering becomes a gift you give Me, that I in return; gift to many souls. So you see, you work with Me in the job of gift-giving during the Christmas season, when I allow trials and sufferings. So don’t resent Me for it beloved.

(Jesus sighed) …You are weighed down so heavily right now. My mercy is coming to liberate you.”

Mother Elisha: I was being consumed again by my emotions, the frustration and pain. I cried out the Jesus prayer “Lord Jesus, have mercy upon me a poor sinner, please have mercy”

What else is on Your heart for Your flock?

Jesus responded,

“I still want to talk with you beloved. I want you to use this time to be thankful. I want you to write a list of gratitude of all the good things your beloved has done and the positive additions he has added to your life – there are many by the way. I want all My beloved brides to start there. Many of you are going through various trials where you can find yourself full of complaint and even resentment towards Me for permitting these sufferings. I challenge all My Brides this week, to write a gratitude list.

“Think hard and deeply of all the things that you can be grateful for, and even think of the good that is coming from the trials you’re facing. Or the good in the person causing the trial for you. What positive attributes do they have? How have they blessed and helped you in the past? I want you to take your time on this list and allow the Holy Spirit bring to remembrance My faithfulness in your lives and even where you were last year, and how far I have brought you.

“None of your situations My Brides are the same as even last year, you have moved forward and even excelled with new experiences, which means new graces and more virtue than you had. So you are not where you used to be and that is a means of gratitude. Many of you have been blessed with children, spouses, and new opportunities that you didn’t have before – so thank Me. And many more of you have your lives. You have known people close to you who have passed away and yet you are still here. That means I still have great plans and purposes for you My beloved Brides, so thank Me.

“There is so much compliant, ingratitude and indifference in the world, now more than ever. That is all I hear from the world and it pains me to hear that from the heart of My Brides, when I have been so faithful and constant. The cross is not easy, and many times; My will is not easy. I understand when I told the Father on calvary if it be His will, to pass this cup from me with sweat on my brow – yet I submitted. I understand your struggle with the cross My beloved Brides, but that truly is the means to your salvation, your sanctification and nearness to Me. You may struggle, you may sometimes even drag your cross, but never let it go My beloved Brides. The cross is a means of clinging to Me. It is the source of your strength for all that is to come, and all that you must endure to finish the race until the end. Do not worry, I am here to help you and strengthen you. I love you My beloved Brides I am with you in this.”

Please continue to pray for us family, we really need it. God bless you.

And that was the end of Jesus’ message.