I Thought It Was The Right Thing To Do...And Did It

October 26, 2024

I HAD AN ABORTION ...When I was 24, I found myself in a position that caused me to question everything. I had a baby the year before and felt like I was just now getting my life on track. Then boom, I found out I was expecting again. I just knew I wouldn't be able to handle it and thought, “What would my family think”? After speaking with some friends who had terminated their pregnancy, I decided to do the same. The process was long, and slow, and somewhat painful. At the end I just felt numb and empty. As I sat there and looked at the full room of young girls and women of all ages, I thought, what I have done?

They pep-talk you before telling you, "It will be ok" and "It’s the right thing to do”. But what they don’t tell you is a part of you leaves with that baby once the procedure is done. They don't tell you about the dreams and thoughts of “What if…”? They don’t tell you that every time you see a child you think that could have been mine. It’s been 7 whole years, and I still think about that all the time. And to be honest I regret my decision. I wish I would have trusted in the Lord to provide and walk me through the process. For those of you out there on the fence about getting an abortion...just remember—it is not a mistake that is living inside you, and the fetus is very much alive—no matter how small. No matter your circumstance, trust in God and He will see you through. Children are a gift from God no matter the outcome. There is always adoption as well if you truly feel you cannot handle or take care of a child.

• From, anonymous