Letter To Wounded Warrior I Will Not Fail You

Hello, Brothers, Sisters, and Heartdwellers family.

Although I was coming before the Lord to get a message everyday now more intentionally I was still receiving admonishments from Him through my rhemas, and I couldn’t understand. I kept thinking, “Lord, I thought You and I were good. I am coming to You; you are speaking, and I am trying my best to be obedient to what you told me to do but I had a keen sense that I may be in the doghouse. I just didnt know why. Then I pulled a rhema this morning that summed it all up

The first card I pulled said,

“Ask me to strength you in this way that you would desire all that I desire with a heart of gratitude” -Jesus

The second said   

Lord, in my zeal to please You and get underway with the portrait and songs, truly I have not spent the time we both need together. As a result, I’ve become lukewarm and need to return to my First love.

Ouch, that was a Rhema from Mother Clare. That was the first part of the card. The second part said:

This is a universal problem with most of My ministers. They become so excited with the beauty of the work and a feeling of being used, they slowly cut their time with Me shorter and shorter to accommodate their need to produce. This need not be you. You know better and happy you are nipping it in the bud”

I thought, “Oh wow. Lord. Forgive me again. I just then had also received news from one of my sisters. The Lord had played a few songs earlier about very specific trials and sufferings in a certain area. I just couldn’t resonate. Then a picture popped in my mind that these songs were about her and I had tears in my eyes because of it— all that she had endured. I really look up to her, an amazing woman of endurance and perseverance. So, she called the following day to share with me some personal issues. It took my breath away. We had prayed for so long against things and it seemed we take one step forward, then ten steps back, or so it felt. We had to believe God was still working. So, when I came before Jesus after receiving him I had her heavily on my mind. I started hearing Jesus tell me some promises concerning her as if to answer my question as to, “Why, Lord?”

Funny enough the Bible phrase on the YouVersion app was “Why does God allow suffering?” so I decided I needed to begin writing.

Hi Lord, I am sorry I left you to do other things hope you are not too upset. I just wanted to have him taken care of so can be fully available for you

Jesus began,

“What matters is that you are here now, Beloved”

And I’m sorry for making ministry an idol again. Surely I didn’t see any of this in my heart. With my health now it seems it’s hard to sit more than an hour or two in the chair I start hurting and then just rest in You. I thought that was what you wanted me to do.

“Yes, Beloved I do. But where is your heart? It’s time to do a heart check. You are getting lukewarm some of it is not your fault because you have much oppression around you. So, I am very merciful towards you but I want My bride back in love— inflamed in love with Me again”

Oh Lord, only You can do that. Help me to continue to make myself available and have my heart truly desire fellowship with You. Not because I have to but because I want to. Please help me.

“I will, Beloved, I will. I know your heart is weighed down by the suffering of your dear sister. She is such a beautiful soul, so very beautiful. I need you both to have confidence in Me, Indeed, her suffering has been long, but I will turn her ashes into beauty. I am making her into a great saint. Great will be her crown, and great will be her glory in heaven. She will shine among the stars. Her descendants will stretch as far as the firmament because she has obeyed—because she has given Me her ‘Yes’. Let her know I will restore her, and her marriage, and give her breakthrough by the end of this year. A real and tangible breakthrough for all to see. The enemy is roaring again and will continue to until the end of the year. Things always become a bit more difficult for My brides and My body leading up to October and after Halloween when many curses land, and even into Christmas. Because, while most of the world is distracted by amusements, shopping, and allurements, satan and his servants are at work and so many souls perish. I lean on the suffering of My brides to release much grace to center all that they do so that chosen souls are touched with the grace and return back to me. So, I can’t say that it will get easier. There are some rough waters ahead for you all in the coming months, but I will bring a real tangible breakthrough.

“I have knitted your souls together like Johnathan and David. You asked for that Beloved, remember? and I was faithful to answer.”

As an aside, guys, this is so true. This soul I’m speaking about is not a real sister but, she’s like a sister to me. She’s family. I remember when starting Heartdwellers Ghana, the mission to Ghana, and the City of God, she was a prayer point that I had everyone praying for. Praying that she would come on board, and have a heart for the Cloud of Witnesses, the Saints, and the Blessed Mother because she wasn’t quite there yet and wasn’t really interested in knowing. God has brought her full circle and now she is a part of the ministry, an intercessor, and even a priest. God is so faithful.

Jesus continued,

“All the songs I played to you yesterday were concerning the news she would receive today. I am so very proud of her. I am so very pleased with her. Indeed, she has persevered year by year, month by month, and day by day—at times under all manner of persecution from enemies in her own family, from the demons, and hell itself. How she is very much hated because she has not relented. They have done all that they could to have her turn her faith back to her atheist beliefs, not knowing [that] every trial, every test, and every dark tunnel has brought her closer to Me— brought her closer to the destiny that I have for her. She will walk in great authority in the area of deliverance from witchcraft and satanic influences. She must know the depth of this darkness so she can be able to counsel others and set many, many captives free. The words you gave her months ago were from My Spirit. This is their 12th year of marriage, and the number 12 is very significant to Me, so is it her year of turning 40. She has been in the wilderness far enough. This is her year of manifestation and walking into her promised land. Although it doesn’t look like it, encourage her with these words. Have her meditate on Psalm 126 because, at the end of this year, her mouth will be filled with laughter as if she were dreaming. Mark My Words. And all those who have stood with her, prayed with her and even those who left her will say, indeed, God has done a great thing!

Enemies continue to surround her, and her light just burns brighter. A torch I am making her to be in these end times and in her ministry which will be birthed at the start of next year, setting many captives free. She also will receive the promised child as well next year. There is so much glory, favor, honor, laughter, joy, and restoration in store for her just around the corner.

“Let her know I will tie up all the loose ends. Leave it to Me. I will take care of all the attachments of the others. They will begin to go one by one. What she will see when she looks at her husband at the end of the year is a new man, because he will be a new creation, finally fully in Me.

“I have already begun to move now, My beloved daughter. Don’t you see? He is home, he is opening up, he is contrite, and his tears are sincere. He doesn’t know what to do because He is still blinded, still under control. But that will soon change. I have carried your tears one by one in the palm of My hand, into an alabastra jar soon to be poured out to bring healing. I had to wound you to heal you, and out of these wounds will flow rivers of living waters to the nations to heal so many marriages and to set many men and women, especially in marriage, in bondage to witchcraft influence, free.

“Your fight has been fierce because of your destiny ahead. There have been more covens than you know fighting against you from different nations and places in order to dampen and snuff out the glory intended for you. You have been a target for Satan since the day you were born because your bloodline. You were dedicated to him, but you chose otherwise. I set you apart even in your Mother’s womb to serve Me and Me alone, and to be the co-redeemer in your family tree to set many free. I know you are hurting, and I am right there hurting with you. But trust me, I will bring so much good out of this situation. You can hang on to My words and promises to you. I will not fail you”

That was the end of Jesus’ message.