Little Changes

October 29, 2024

Hello family, 

Greetings in Jesus name. My name is Jahnavi.

Some days back, Mother Elisha approached me, to share my story as Lord wanted a word out, No to Abortion. 

Family, my life came to a difficult situation when I found out that I conceived with [my] third child. 

Honestly, I was not ready. At first, I had rejection feelings towards this child, and I was not sure that I could carry on with this pregnancy. The reason was, I was obese, and pregnancy at this stage was not advisable. After my second child, My doctor clearly advised me not to plan any child further. So, all sorts of fears and doubts assailed me—fear of the future, fear of losing my health, and for my two children who were still young. Along with it, my folks were completely against my pregnancy, for they too, feared about my health, and my husband was not ready to take responsibility for one more child. 

He too, struggled with the thought [that] raising more children could be a financial burden. And having a third child was also a cultural embarrassment because in my country people go for two children, and it's kind of a social taboo. So, all suggested abortion. Thankfully, my heart didn't agree. Even though I didn't want the child, the thought of abortion brought fear in my heart. Abortion is a grievous sin against the Lord. Knowing this, I didn't consent, and a thought came in my heart, if Lord has given to me, He will take care of it. 

Now the real fear was my doctor. Will she suggest [to] me abortion? Will she allow me to have the child? When I and my husband were about to visit the doctor, my heart was anxious [about] all negative outcomes.

I prayed to the Lord, for [the] doctor’s approval. I heard a voice, “Fear not, I am with you.” To my surprise, she consented [to] my decision.

And then, the real test came—in the last month of my pregnancy, Covid hit, and my doctor was not accessible to me. I had to pay [to] visit to other doctors who otherwise suggested me for c-section. For me it was not advisable either. I and my husband sought the Lord and prayed. 

Lord gave me a word, from Isaiah 66:9,

Do I bring to the moment of birth and not give delivery?, says the Lord.

The scripture encouraged me to believe, I will have normal delivery.

However, things didn't look favorable. Because of covid, I had no help. Being obese, it was hard for me to even move from one step to another, but His grace kept me going. I was down with low blood pressure and then suddenly it went high. 

Finally, after much prayer, Lord led me to a hospital where they accepted my case on a condition of inducing. That was another painful episode in my life. I feared the doctors would put me to c-section. But His word prevailed. On May 16th, 2020, I gave birth to very healthy baby boy. Lord was with me in all my ordeals. Even though things were so difficult, our God is faithful. He kept me in spite of my weak faith.

Now when I come to think, about having this child, at that time, I was not ready to be a mother again. I was unwilling, my folks wanted the child to be aborted. Now this very child has become a centre of joy in our lives. He is a gift from God, bought so much joy in us that we have no regret of having the child. Today he is growing beautifully. We named him Ashish, [which] means Blessing, It's been 5 years since he was born, and we are thankful to God. 

After his birth I went low and faced many storms. In all these, Ashish has been such a comfort to me. Whenever I cried in despair, he would come to me, hug me and wipe my tears and would say to me, “Mummy, don't cry”. My heart just melted away. Whenever I am frustrated, he would just pull me and say, “Mummy, please smile”. He makes little cards for expressing his pure love to me. With his little acts and words my stress gets less, and a smile comes to my face.

To all those who are listening, maybe you are in a dilemma about having a child or wanting to abort, because you don’t feel ready, or feel fear of [the] future. Please know, I would have missed [the] greatest joy in my life, if I have aborted my baby.

Lord’s purpose to give you children, is that you love and be loved. Once, Lord told me, when you love, you give My love and in truth you love Him.

So don’t fear having a child, for he would be the greatest blessing in your life. The scripture says when John the Baptist was born, a prophecy came to the priest Zechariah about Him that He will be a great joy and delight to him, and many will rejoice because of his birth (Luke chapter 1:14). So will be your child to you. And you will see greatest blessing of heaven. Lord will take care! He will not leave you alone. Today Lord is teaching me to raise my children.

True to His word, He sustained me, I had a natural birth, amidst all impossibilities. He gave me the most wonderful gift and healed me of all my fears. So, He will do unto you too! Be blessed and choose life Amen!