Why Wasn’t I Healed? – Part 4

~ A Teaching From Mother Clare ~

Romans 8:17: “Now we are children and heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ. If indeed we share in His sufferings in order that we may also share in His glory.”

Again, His suffering was the Cross. Well, it was a lot more than just that. He was denied by the very same people He came to save. And yes, we will be denied – that’s one of the sufferings. But don’t tell me that your sickness isn’t a cross. You know your sickness is a cross, and there is so much God is doing with that sickness until He chooses to heal you. The healing could come in the form of you leaving your earthly tent behind, or the healing could come in the form of someone praying over you and all of a sudden, you’re healed. And you’re freed from that infirmity.

Until that healing comes, there’s work to do. Things are going on. There are powerful graces being released from that work of that cross. The complications to your life, your loved ones – all of us feel terrible when we are sick and we’re a burden to other people. What could be more miserable? You’re a burden to yourself and you’re a burden to others? That’s a heart cross, but you have to understand there is sanctification going on in that household. The ones who are suffering with you because of all the work they have to do to take care of you are also being sanctified. They are being made complete lacking in nothing as James says (James 1:4). It’s through their perseverance. So, even in situations where you feel terrible because you’ve got it terrible, I’ve got news for you: you are a cross that is bringing forth virtue into their personality and their character. You are preparing them for Heaven. It’s a beautiful thing. Very hard, very difficult, very painful… but a beautiful dynamic.

The other thing about the cross that is so powerful is humiliation. Being humbled, just as I talked about. You’re in a household and you’re a burden to other people – that is so humbling. Maybe you can’t get up and go to the restroom. You have to be helped in that way. That is so humiliating and so humbling. But you see, how humble was the Lord, that any of us ever attain to that kind of humility? Yes, through the cross we can be very much like the Lord. He asks us to be that way. In fact, Paul says, to keep me from becoming conceited Because of his revelations he was given that thorn, right? (2 Corinthians 12:7) How many times when we’re sick do we feel like nothing? I mean we’re worst than nothing. A deficit. A burden. In Philippians 2:6 it says, “The Lord, who being in very nature of God did not consider equality with God to be grasped at but made Himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant. Being made into human likeness and being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to death. Even death on a cross.”

There’s nothing in our lives that could be as humiliating as what Jesus went through. Let me tell you, when you have to suffer tremendous, humiliating situations because of a condition of your body, you’re very close to Him. You’re beginning to look very much like Him. One thing He’s continually telling me is: “My Bride, you must resemble Me. That is the reason for your sufferings. I want you to resemble Me. When you come to Heaven, such glory will be yours for the crosses that you carried.”

Never mind if you’ve complained. I hope that I’m giving you a perspective on this, so that you’ll stop complaining and start thanking the Lord. This is something He’s been working with me for a long time about and my husband, as well. The glory will be ours, because we received those crosses and we carried them faithfully without becoming bitter, angry, or disillusioned. Maybe we had to deal with depression sometimes. Even that can be a terrible cross to carry. If we know the Lord and we love Him, He will communicate His grace, mercy, love, and His comfort to us and whisper into our hearts: “Beloved, there’s nothing wrong with your faith and there’s no great sin in your life. I’m sharing the Cross with you. Will you help Me carry it?”

You see, the Lord is going to suffer pain until the very day that this whole mess is wrapped up and every soul’s destiny has been decided. He’s going to suffer, because He has created us. And when we suffer, He suffers terribly. He cries with us, He hurts with us. His compassion is beyond reckoning. You can’t understand God’s compassion. It is so much higher than anything we could ever imagine. When you’re carrying that cross, He’s right there with you. The Lord whispers in your ear: “There’s nothing wrong with you, you’re not lacking in faith. There’s no condemnation, there… was nothing wrong with the gift of healing. This is a cross that I’ve given you and because you have carried it with love and devotion for Me, I’ve united your suffering to My suffering on the Cross, and great glory will be yours in Heaven. And you will see all the beautiful things that were accomplished through your suffering.”

Relatives that eventually came to the Lord, loved ones that were released from drugs, missionaries that were successful and brought a whole tribe of souls to Jesus. How beautiful. Truly, the Lord’s ways are not our ways. Don’t let anyone lie to you and tell you there’s something wrong with you because you didn’t get healed. There’s nothing wrong with you.

Jesus is sharing His cross.

God bless you.