With Purity of Heart And Courage Move Forward

Hello brothers, sisters, and Heartdwellers family. It’s been a few rough days where things have seemed so uncertain and I have been struggling with my discernment, needing clarity of many things as the Lord seems to allow changes upon changes that are coming as contradictions.

I had been finding it hard to hear from Lord through it all—unsure of what I was hearing— what I was really attached to. I pulled the Rhema:

“In times of struggle and suffering, of darkness and storm, of yearning & sorrow, in times of difficult trials, in times when nobody will understand me, when I will even be condemned & scorned by everyone, I will remember the day of my perpetual vows, the day of God’s incomprehensible grace.

That was from St. Faustina, from my Rhema card file. Then another I got said,

“Be not anxious when listening for the sound of My voice in your heart. You will recognize My words, and this will happen without anxiety or stress on your part. Be at peace.”

But again, I was finding it hard to hear his voice because of my attachment and my anxiety of all the confusion that was swarming around me. I just couldn’t connect to some of the Rhemas He had given me for the past few days. I just felt so lost. So, upon receiving him this morning I just took a leap of faith to hear his voice after getting the Rhema card about listening for His voice.

Good morning. Jesus, I am so sorry I have been busy with other things. Truly, I have felt far from You. I know I have been. Lord speak to my anxious heart your instructions and your plans that I may fulfill according to your will, Lord.

Jesus began,

“My beloved, I am here to calm your anxious heart. You have been engrossed much in the world as of late due to duties that required it. And that is okay. But that means you must spend more trysting time with Me, to not only hear My voice, to receive instructions, but to be cleansed, to be healed, to be strengthened and armed each day for what the day brings, Beloved. Do not shorten your time with Me or allow your thoughts to stay in your head alone, trying to figure things out yourself. I am here now to bring you clarity concerning what it is I have been trying to convey to you. The sentiments you just had are from My inspiration, Beloved. You are thinking too rationally and practically, both you and your beloved. Your ways will never work that way in completing this work.”

As an aside guys, because of the possibility of us leaving for the US for a quite a long period of time, we were thinking to hold off on building hermitages or hostels for the missionaries and couples who would come to be a part of the community. I was thinking to wait until we return because I didnt want to start something and just leave it. So, we were going to build one hermitage for ourselves with a room or two for guests as we farm the land and help the surrounding community, then build later. Plus, we just weren’t getting any clarity how to go about everything. I know Jesus said the keep the kids at the centre, but we were ask by the contractor how many kids do we want? What would we like the building to look like how many rooms? That I didnt know at all.

I didn’t know how all of that would come about because many of the kids in the surrounding area have parents and homes. I just didn’t know where to start. Then during prayer today, it finally was given to me like a download. I was so focused on how this would become a community of helping children and how to start it than a prayer community, which is its foundation.

The Lord began to inspire me by reminding me that I should again build the three houses for males, females and married couples to come. As missionaries and volunteers come to aid with the farm and get to know the surrounding community, that is how the City of God community will be built, bit by bit. As we get to know the needs of the people, support and help them then we will know what we can do about the needs of the children. But I needed to build to encourage those who were called to Ghana to come.

As I thought, ‘Really, Lord now? That made me anxious. I wasn’t sure I was ready for people to come now. I wanted to have somewhere to house them—a building up at least.

Then Jesus continued,

“Remember, Mother Clare also thought this way until I prompted her to bring you to New Mexico. It didn’t make sense because nothing was built, nothing was read. And they went back and forth with this until I made it very clear. And you were such a strong support, a necessary factor in building the community with your prayers, with your encouragement, and with the gifts I have given you. The same goes for you now, Beloved. Let your reasoning get out of My way”, (He said, smiling).

As I thought about it I had an “Aha” moment. Very true, Lord. When Mother put the message about the refuge, she didn’t expect the Lord to bring me so soon. As a matter fact, I didn’t want to go and she didn’t know where to put me, as she said, nothing has been built yet. She thought she would build and then we would come. I stayed in the sunroom of the house for five months until we were finally able to move on the mountain. Those five months were fiercest with many battles of doubts, discouragement, and many attacks for her and I was able to really encourage her to keep going and trusting in Gods promise that he would fulfill it and bring people. And now, almost four years later, He has, because of her obedience to have me come right away.

“My ways are much higher and only I know the reason why it’s necessary for certain souls to come now. You will need them, and they will be a tremendous help to begin this work. Although you are building slowly the work starts now. Much prayer is needed to form this community into all that I have in mind for it to be. It will be built by the prayers of My beloved priests, and the community will be formed by the love and work of the missionaries that I send your way.

“The Rhema concerning relationships is pertaining to this My beloved little one.”

I pulled a Rhema from the card file, and it read:

“It’s imperative to listen to the wisdom of the Lord right now regrinding relationships and those who are walking with you on your journey. I heard the Lord saying, “Inner circles are shifting.” some of these inner circles need to shift and change in order to move into the New’. — Lana Vawser

This Rhema was given to me a day before. Then this morning I went on Instagram, and I saw this post and I was in awe not realizing it was again, Lana Vawser.

“My people, many of you I see are trying to hold onto old relationships and take everyone with you into all that I have for you and am birthing through you: but there are some that cannot go with you in this hour. The season has changed and it’s time to release. It’s time to go where I am calling you to go and know that I am bringing those alongside you who can go with you. Seasons change and those you walk with change: and I am bringing you into a place where you are going to have to lean into Me and My Spirit and wisdom in a way you have not before. You are going to have to live in a place of understanding My voice and My Strategy like never before: and there are some who will try and talk you out of My strategy, and they cannot go with you. You continue to love and bless those, but it is time to let go of some relationships that have shifted.

“My people keep your hands open. Hold nothing tightly but Me. For in this birthing that is taking place I am rearranging, and some things you must let go of and allow them to fall to the ground, for the season is done, it’s over and My grace has lifted. You must release in order to receive the new that I have for you. Do not get stuck in fear over provision, applause of man or your own understanding. You must lean deeply into all that I am doing, even when you don’t understand and obey My leading and command. The pressure has been intense, and the birth pangs have felt like, for some of you, that you would not survive them: but I have kept you. But in order to steward My heart and My glory in this hour, you must remain open handed and laid down. The choice to obey Me or man is going to become more real in this hour than ever before. Fear of man will be laid bare on a whole new level.”

Jesus continued,

“There will be some who have started with you and will not continue with you. Many will come and leave, but still welcome them anyway. And when I send them off do not be disheartened. Know that it’s Me removing and rearranging things to sustain and form this community of love.

“So, do not get discourage by that, Beloved, because you will be tempted to several times. But just like the mountain, this community is not for the faint of heart. Just like the first soul I sent there, was hit with all manner of expectations not being met and rather left disheartened and frustrated from the culture and the people of this nation. However, in time her heart will adjust again and grow in love. That is what I am teaching and that is what I desire, souls whose lives are laid down for Me—laid down for My will, and My will alone. There will be many things to complain about, expectations not met, and hard difficult times. But the souls who have truly fully surrendered, no attachment to their preferences, desires and even family, are the ones who will endure and stay because they have given Me everything, just as you have, Beloved. So be not dismayed again, Beloved, nor allow your beloved to be dismayed when these things happen. Only look to Me for approval and the next step and keep moving forward.

“So, yes, farm, Beloved. But then begin to build the three buildings—one for male priests, female priests, and married couples. The place you will rent for now will become a communal house as I send you souls now to be with you and Father Derrick. They will be a great source of help, not a burden as you think.

Lord what about when I have to leave? When we have to leave, then what”

“Trust Me—Trust Me. When that time comes I will make it clear what to do. Do not go ahead of Me or plan according to your thinking of how things will turn. You should know by now nothing ever turns out the way you think, My love” (He said smiling again).

Yes, Lord very true.

“Yes, My beloved. So, you put out the call to the souls I have prompted to come. Some I will ask to stay, and others will be just a visit, but all is necessary. Once again do not think you have to have your ducks in a row. You just be obedient, and I will bless it just as I did the refuge, mountain community. It was built on faith, obedience and on love, and yours will be the same. Do not worry, Beloved with the details. I have them all covered. Put the plan in action and write the plan. Make it clear with my instructions and for those who will come so there are no false expectations. And make it clear to your beloved as well. I will give him the grace to submit to these instructions and those whom you share this with. I am behind you both—all of heaven is. Stay close, My little one. Listen closely, and all will be well.”

That was the end of Jesus’ message.

Thank you family so much for your continuous support and your prayers of course. We are still very low on donations to meet our goal to complete Phase Two of the City of God building project.

Just to be transparent with you guys we are hoping for a big check to come in. I received the check, and we are so grateful! But it wasn’t nearly as much as we thought, and we already have a deficit with this project. So, my heart jumped a bit when I saw it. And I became a little bit disheartened, wondering, Lord, are we under discipline? Is that why you’re allowing the donations to be so low, and our needs not being able to be met? So, I decided to pull Rhemas to see where the Lord’s heart was. It was really encouraging.

The first Rhema said:

When we try to guide ourselves, we risk putting obstacles in the way of divine action, as a consequence of our meddling and deviating from the path marked out for us by God. Whereas, when we abandon ourselves to God, we walk on the safe road. We enter the way that leads most quickly to the goal that He has set for us.

I was like, “Okay, Lord,” and I felt it was probably about the check, just trusting Him. Where in my mind, I was putting my hope in that. And He’s saying that, my trying to guide myself in any way, for provision, is just meddling. We are now trying to look up ways in my mind of how we could raise more donations. He’s just saying, “Get Out The Way! Trust Me and abandon yourself.

The second Rhema was very, very encouraging. It said,

“With purity of heart and courage, move forward”

So, it lets me know we are on the right track, and this is really a test of faith for us. Because, man, we are so in need. We really are in need to help those we support, and to really begin the work—or finish the work of Phase Two as the land right now is just idle. But I trust the Lord that He’s in the delays, right now.

So, I have shared with you guys before, we have cleared the land, and it is just idle because we need to fix the truck with a new engine so we can get to the land. We need to fix the road and dig the dam a bit deeper, to get no salt water. We need to plow the land with a tractor and dig a bore well for clean water for us.

The Lord is also asking us to have two of our intercessors come to help us pray over the land before we start farming and building. The Lord wants us to bring two of our intercessors from Kenya to Ghana, which is about $531.00 left to pay for their plane ticket so they can be with us here praying while we wait for the Lord to bring more provision. So please think of us, family. Any amount would be appreciated. God bless you!