You Can’t Outrun The Rain

Hello, brothers, sisters, and Heartdwellers family.

It’s been a difficult week, to say the least. After getting three Passion readings within one week, I knew the Lord was prompting me that a great trial was coming where I would have to be on the cross with Him. To say I wasn’t anxious or fearful would be lying because I have never gotten three Passion readings in one week during my Lord’s Supper. For those who are new to the channel, Passion readings are the chapters on Jesus’ way to Calvary, the last few days before he was crucified. When He gives that reading or scriptures to any one of us it’s a heads up of a suffering that you will go through that week or coming up.

Sure enough, I received some bad news. At first it didnt seem that bad, once it was told to me. But the following days I was overwhelmed with the reality of what I had been told. The enemy took full advantage to hit me with all types of suggestions and images. I had an overwhelming sense of sorrow, sadness, and depression that I just couldn’t shake off. I would pray, then would be okay. Then it would hit me later in the day. Usually, I am able to overcome or shake it off within a day or two but now it was going on a week, and I was in a pit of sorrow, hopelessness, despair, and weariness that I couldn’t get out of. I couldn’t pray—I didn’t even know how and had no desire. I had no words.    Truly, I just wanted the Lord to make things all better again because it never took this long for me. But I couldn’t shake it off no matter what I did, as the tears would just come.

Then today He played a song during our worship, by Calee Reed called, “You Can’t Outrun the Rain”. Something broke through for the first time. Amidst all the Rhemas I [had gotten] to encourage me, this did it because it touched on exactly how I was feeling—that I didn’t need to run from it or try to rush the process. The lyrics go,

“Outrun the Rain”

by Calee Reed

You can’t rush the sunrise The brilliant color through the grey No matter how you ache for light You can’t rush the sunrise The waves crash when they will You can’t keep stars in the sky You try to stop them but will still Come crashing down when they will [Repeat Chorus]

You can’t outrun the rain So lift your arms open wide Feel the cleansing that comes through the pain You can’t outrun the rain Cold and winter, they come Deaf to summer’s dying cries For good or ill we beg for the sun But cold and winter still come We beg time to stand still Or pray for time to fly Eons past and future past in perfect time ’til The One who created time wills (Repeat Chorus) So push through the ache Light waits around the bend He’ll give more than He’ll ever take So trust in His time, my friend So trust in His time, my friend (Repeat Chorus) You can’t outrun the rain.

Upon receiving the Lord I came before Him saying,

Good morning Jesus,

I am sorry I have run away from You in the midst of my pain and confusion. So, it was all a test?

Because, guys, I was trying to discern something, and I kept getting confirmation over and over and over again. But in reality, I was also being told that the things I was saying or discerning weren’t true. And what I was seeing before my eyes, the things weren’t true, but I kept getting Bible Promises so I was wondering if it was a lying spirit, is it the enemy, what are these suggestions? It was really confusing. It had me question my discernment and the messages Jesus was giving me. Then I pulled the Rhema card, and it said, “Love is not really love unless it’s tested with a cross with blood coming from it. So that’s why I asked Jesus, “Wait, was it all a test?”

Jesus began,

“Yes, Beloved. Your love will continue to be tested over and over again, not just by situations like this but by souls I bring to you who are broken, wounded, misguided, and some who are unaware of how lost they are. I bring them to you so you can pray for them. Although they wound you, Beloved, pray for them. You are an instrument of My mercy—you and all My brides are.

“Your love will continuously be brought to the cross time and time again and it’s for the salvation of souls. Sometimes for the salvation of that one soul that has hurt you the most. I am here to bring words of comfort to you, and all My other weary brides. It’s okay not to feel okay. It’s okay not to be strong. It’s okay to struggle with doubt and to feel the pain of your suffering. I do not admonish you for it nor did I reject these emotions or feelings when I felt it in My earthly life. I still suffer with each and every single one of you. When you suffer, I suffer too. But what I didn’t do was rush the process or want the process of even the pain to go.

“I know it’s so human to desire that. When one is in pain, especially emotional pain, you want to get past it, you want it to stop, you want to overcome it, conquer it, be delivered from it, and healed right away. But there is a purpose for pain and purpose for the length of pain that I allow you to pass through. That song is true, and I am glad that it finally got through to you. I don’t want you to outrun the rain, Beloved.  When you find yourselves, My brides, in a season, or situations where clouds have come—you’re in your storm and the rain is bringing pain that seems so unbearable—do not run from it, do not hide in your depression or self-pity, and do not stew in your bitterness and resentment. I want you to rather embrace it. Be real with yourself. I want you to feel what is going on. These feelings and emotions I gave to you and it is okay to have when trials come but do not stay there or keep them or they will eat up all the love that is in you. You must give it to Me one by one, day by day, and sometimes hour by hour if it gets that bad. I am not far off and it’s not too much for Me, my beloved sweet doves.

“I never ever get burdened by your questions, your doubts, your fears, and definitely not your sufferings. These are My crosses that I am sharing with you, so I am carrying you whether you realize it or not. And I can guarantee you that after every storm, after every rain there is a rainbow. There is sunshine that comes to dry up the precipitation and that is the same for your soul. I promise I will turn everything around for your good in the midst of the most difficult trials—in the midst of some of the hardest news you may have to hear. I am with you and have already made provision for My grace to sustain you when you have those hard days and difficult moments. Don’t fast-track what I am doing and what I am allowing you to pass through. It is all necessary not only for your sanctification but it’s necessary for your story and My testimony in your life. Oh, so many of My saints and the generals of faith went through the most difficult trials walking with Me. Although some had the same sentiments as you at times, asking Me ‘Why?’ and ‘When, Lord?’, not realizing all that I was doing behind the scenes. I work the most, My beloved brides, in your rainy seasons. Even with land—is rain not necessary to cause things to grow and bear fruit? So, you see the same with your soul. Embrace the rain, allow the trials of this life, your tears to nourish the soil of your heart, breaking things that need to be broken so that I may come in and restore and make all things beautiful and I will do just that. Hold fast to hope, My beloved brides. You will smile again.”

That was the end of Jesus’ message.

What a sweet encouraging word of hope for many who may be in this valley as I have been.

Continue to please pray for us, guys, in the mission, and also, please, we’re really low on donations.

Father Robby and Caroline who are coming to Ghana, are in need of about $1500.00 in order to deliver their things from their house to Father Robby’s hometown. It’s about 800 km away, so, the delivery costs a lot, and we just don’t have it. They have to be out of their house by the end of this month. So, we need the funds as soon as we can in order to get their things out of the house before they return the keys. So, please, family, if there is any amount at all that you can give—any donation amount you can give to support Father Robby and Caroline, for their coming and for them to deliver their items and their goods out of the house before they move to Ghana. Please, please think of us. Donate at the GoFundMe link for the City of God and note that it is for them. Or you can also donate via PayPal and just note that it is for Father Robby and Caroline. Either way, any donation received from now until the end of the month would definitely be used or geared towards their move. So please, please, support and help us, guys, so we can make this happen.

Alright, God bless you, family, until the next message.